I am trying not to freak out, if anyone has any ideas, I could really use them. I am a single mother to three children. My youngest dd, age 3, is epileptic and I stay home with her, as her seizures are not well controlled on medication yet, and I haven't been able to find a care provider I feel safe leaving her with. For the past year, I have been on welfare and disability so that I can afford to live and somewhat support my children (it has been tough!)
Last month, child support enforcement starting garnishing my ex husband's wages. I ended the welfare payments starting in august, because the state says you can't be on welfare and receive CS. However, last week my ex husband was fired from the job he has worked at for almost a decade. This has totally blindsided me, none of us saw it coming. The problem is that now, for the month of August I HAVE NO INCOME coming in!!! I have no idea what I am going to do!! I literally do not have five dollars to my name. I can't buy gas to drive the kids to school, I can't pay for my dd's medication, I can't buy toilet paper or soap.
I've been putting resume's out like crazy and had two interviews, but let's face it. Nobody wants to hire a single mom to three kids - one of whom is disabled. I was supposed to start school this month, but couldn't start because I can't afford gas to drive there, school supplies or books...(I am on deferred tuition payments until financial aid kicks in, which won't happen because I'm not going).
I've reapplied for welfare, but who knows when it will kick in - maybe not until September. Ex will not pay anything, it's not even an option I already know. I've been borrowing 20 bucks here and there from friends and my mom for gas, but I can't keep doing this....my cc is maxed out from being unemployed and from the 8 bazillion dollars we have in medical bills from dd. Even if I did get a job, I have no idea how I would get dd to all her therapies or find a school who could care for her (though we did just have a meeting with the school district last week, which means more assessments and appointments).
I just really need some reassurance that this will end. Hugs or something. Right now, I feel crushed by my obstacles, choked by my struggles. I don't know how we are going to make it for a month with nothing. Not a dime. I'm trying to go moment by moment and stay present, realizing for now we are ok....we are ok...and it will pass. But omg!! Yesterday at the pharmacy I went to pick up dd's seizure meds and because her father's insurance was cancelled almost had a heart attack at the co pay. Thank god medicaid didn't give us a pain about covering as her primary. I don't know how we are going to make it through this. I couldn't even buy my boys socks or pencils for their first day of school.