mamasinNC, I forgot to actually welcome you, in my confused/self-absorbed HPT haze. So, welcome to the group, and may your stay here be short! (My fingers are crossed for a (clear, definitive) BFP when you test, on Friday, or whenever you cave.) While things have been pretty quiet recently, I definitely rely on this group for support on the TTC front. I'm doing this on my own, and there's no one in my real life who wants to hear about how Femara has changed my LP, or obsess about the difference (or lack thereof) between PMS and pregnancy symptoms. And I have to laugh at the idea of showing my "possibly positive" HPTs to anyone who hasn't been through this process--I guarantee they would take one look and say "what do you mean, you see a line? It's white, just white. Get a grip."
AFM, yesterday evening tests (yes, 2) were back to "I can maybe wishful-thinking see a line, but really nothing." And then this morning, CD14, another very faint maybe positive--but definitely something, pretty equivalent to Tuesday night, and I could see it by 8-10 min. I'm still thinking it should be darker two days later, but I'm cautiously hopeful.
Then, of course, I decided to try the one digital test I have (Clearblue), thinking, well, maybe this batch of cheapie internet strips (wondfos) has really light ink, and I'm torturing myself for no reason, when the digital will give me a thumbs up or thumbs down. So, that was a bad idea. It said "not pregnant," but I looked up the sensitivity and it may only be sensitive to 50mIU--the wondfos are sensitive to 25miu, and since they're not a +/-, may actually detect below that.
I'm not willing to say I'm pregnant until I see something that I don't still half-think is an evap line. I'm down to 1 more test, so I activated the power of Amazon prime, and will have a new batch of wondfos tomorrow in the mail, so I can keep up my "early and often" testing philosophy. I am fairly hopeful that I just had a late implantation, or a slow rising HcG, for whatever reason. Of course, after getting my hopes up like this, I'm worried about how crushed I'll be if my period does arrive on schedule, but I'm trying to live in the moment. Also, part of me is wondering if there's any link between these incredibly faint maybes and the fact that I've never been able to get a positive OPK? (They don't stay blank, but usually never got as dark as the control line or scored me a smiley on the digitals.) I know they're related molecules. Maybe I just don't put them out in large quantities, or they don't transfer well into my urine? Then again, maybe I'm overthinking this like a crazy person!
36, hoping to have a new member of the family in 2015, to join my queer clan: Me
, Things 1&2
, my long-distance KD/cheerleader (the guy who's been telling everyone what a great mom I'm going to be)
, and the rest of the superheroes and sidekicks