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Did you make it home from your trip okay? Growing boobs......good sign.

Are you testing in the morning or Sunday? I am just so excited for you.
Yes I did make it home just fine thanks So releived to be home actually, my sleep has been really bad these past few days while I was on the trip... I am here until next wednesday at which time I go on the road again... *sigh*

Yes I will test in the morning sunday

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Yes I will test in the morning sunday
And the result is......
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Results are still up in the air.

Saturday morning, 12 DPO... was a disaster. My BBT dropped all the way to coverline. I did a test at about 8... but had already peed like at 7 so it was with very diluted pee... anyway, that turned out BFN..... ouch... that hurt alot. I was sure that was it...

Sunday morning, 13 DPO... BBT shot back up... It never "goes back up" at 13 DPO.... not usually... But we didnt test... I was too scared...

This morning, 14 DPO... BBT is still in the up range... I peed at 2AM.... its now 530AM and there is no way I can go back to sleep... I am waiting to need to pee to test again...

Keep your fingers crossed for us...

Ill be here later with the result... at 14 DPO, it will probably be the right one.

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Here is some water "noises" to make you have to go pee...

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BFN

Right now I am really hating this process.

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BFN

Right now I am really hating this process.

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PS: Thanks Smarty for the company...

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So sorry Coco.

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Coco - I'm so sorry.
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I am so sorrry, Coco. I really thought this was your month.
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Sorry Coco. This roller coaster is so hard

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Nothing going on with me, just hanging around, waiting for the hsg, which is tomorrow.
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IUI #2 was a bust. My . started yesterday, right on time

I am now experiencing an extremely bizzare range of emotions from sadness, to resignation (I don't think I ever believed this one would work anyways) to relief. Relief? WTH is that??? Where on earth is that coming from? We're taking a month off. I don't like this "relief" thing that's crept into the process. This process stinks.
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IUI #2 was a bust. My . started yesterday, right on time

I am now experiencing an extremely bizzare range of emotions from sadness, to resignation (I don't think I ever believed this one would work anyways) to relief. Relief? WTH is that??? Where on earth is that coming from? We're taking a month off. I don't like this "relief" thing that's crept into the process. This process stinks.
yes it does stink...
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IUI #2 was a bust. My . started yesterday, right on time

I am now experiencing an extremely bizzare range of emotions from sadness, to resignation (I don't think I ever believed this one would work anyways) to relief. Relief? WTH is that??? Where on earth is that coming from? We're taking a month off. I don't like this "relief" thing that's crept into the process. This process stinks.
I think the relief is relief from the stress of the TWW, relief from the stress of TTC. I was relieved when we took our break this month. Now I am gearing up for more stress as I try to decide my next step. Enjoy the relief. The stress will come back soon enough.

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I dunno. It was more of a "thank goodness I'm not pregnant" feeling.

Yuck.
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wannabemoms I think I can sympathize some. I don't feel the relief you're talking about, but I have had 2 or 3 cycles where right after we inseminate I think "Oh crap! What have I done. I'm not ready for this right at this moment!" That does make me question myself, but it never lasts long.

4dpo here and already over analyzing every little thing. It's gonna be a long 2 weeks.

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I must say I can sympathize on the roller coaster.....I haven't been around much, trying to figure out my crazy cycle. I never ovulated last month, and was put on clomid. I began clomid, finally had an unpredictable LH surge on Saturday. However, we couldn't get our sample, the bank was closed!!! Finally picked up the sample this morning, hit traffic on the way home and missed our 10:45am apt. We rescheduled the IUI for 3 pm...It doesn't end there. The nurse just called, the Dr is in emergency surgery and they are trying to find someone who can do the procedure. UGH!!!
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Hang in there, Terra!

And you too, wbm.
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Anyone ever have a cyst on Clomid? I'm not being monitored, so I'm not sure if I do or not, but starting yesterday(3dpo) I've felt some pressure,not pain really, in my lower abdomen when I bend or twist. Just wondering - what were your cyst symptoms?

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IUI #2 was a bust. My . started yesterday, right on time

I am now experiencing an extremely bizzare range of emotions from sadness, to resignation (I don't think I ever believed this one would work anyways) to relief. Relief? WTH is that??? Where on earth is that coming from? We're taking a month off. I don't like this "relief" thing that's crept into the process. This process stinks.
As someone who worked very hard to get pregnant, and then *really* freaked out about it, I just want to say that I think it's really normal to experience a range of emotions around the ttc process, and indeed, around pregnancy itself. Having a child is one of the biggest, scariest decisions most of us will ever make. And unlike a lot of straight people, it is, in fact, a conscious decision that we make; for us queers, it rarely "just happens."

Feeling relief about not being pregnant is normal, because having doubts and fears about getting pregnant is normal. Will having child really screw up my life? What will it do to my relationship with my partner? If I'm single, will I ever get a partner once I've got a kid? What if I'm a bad parent? What if I lose my job and can't afford diapers? What if this whole thing was a HUGE MISTAKE? You know, or whatever form of neuroses your own doubts and anxieties take.

The thing to remember is that having doubts and ambivalences doesn't mean that you're making the wrong choice. Rather, it indicates that, indeed, you're taking seriously what a big choice this is, and spending the time now to work out your own fears about the process. Don't beat yourself up over this. It's really, really, really normal.

All of that said, I'm really sorry that this wasn't your month. But I have no doubt that that baby is going to find you at the exact right time, and that you're going to be great parents to it. In the meantime, let yourself feel what you feel, and don't take it all too seriously.


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I am so sorrry, Coco. I really thought this was your month.
I did too... and what sucks is it wont be next month either, I have to go on a buisness trip in CD 10-11-12... thats when I usually have the IUI... so were screwed. We are both having a very hard time with it this time... I guess time will help... but we are having an even harder time because of the forced break... I'll probably get the HSG... or try to... (last try was a disaster...)

Hope you have a great time in the dec DDC !

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Nothing going on with me, just hanging around, waiting for the hsg, which is tomorrow.
Hope it goes well Frog... will be thinking about you...
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good luck with your HSG Frog.

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good luck with your HSG Frog.
Thanks--and to Coco, too!

I'm really, really nervous. I'm a trauma/abuse survivor and I have a hard time with this sort of thing. I took my pre-procedure pills last night and promptly puked my guts out. I've got more pills (cut into a million tiny pieces, so you can imagine how THAT will taste) and some xanax to take before I leave work today. Here's hoping that will go better!

And xanax. At work. That'll be...interesting.
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frog, hopefully thinking of all of us thinking positive thoughts for you will give you something strong to hold onto during your procedure.

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Anyone ever have a cyst on Clomid? I'm not being monitored, so I'm not sure if I do or not, but starting yesterday(3dpo) I've felt some pressure,not pain really, in my lower abdomen when I bend or twist. Just wondering - what were your cyst symptoms?
Yup.

That's not necessarily a cyst. And, actually, I'm not sure that it's bad to have a cyst at this point. Clomid is supposed to make you ovulate "nice and strong" in the condescendaspeak of the doctors, so it's supposed to create a good, progesterone producing luteal cyst.

The problem happens, AFAIK, when that luteal cyst (or cysts, four of them in my case) stick around post CD 1 of the next cycle (assuming you have a next cycle! Hopefully it'll be ten months or more from now!)

Then, they suppress ovulation (or at least can) in the next month.

On Clomid, I felt like my ovaries were big and bloated and heavy, kind of like I do now when I have a good month with lots of EWCM, which happens, but not every month for me.

I did have four cysts, but it doesn't mean you do.

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I dunno. It was more of a "thank goodness I'm not pregnant" feeling.

Yuck.
Yuck. As usual, I totally agree with what AngelaM had to say.

TTC brings up so many random emotions and thoughts. It really is a roller coaster - desperately wanting to be pregnant one minute, and then thinking "OMG, this is a huge mistake."

Hang in there, and take some time off here and there if you need to.

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I really hate the random feelings that TTC can bring up. I've had times where I've thought the ugliest, nastiest thoughts and said the ugliest, nastiest things.

There are days when my reluctant-to-get-excited-about-a-baby-partner gets so excited about his friends who are having twins in a few months (totally straight, totally unplanned, and I'm totally jealous and bitter) that I want to scream.

Seeing him be excited about their pregnancy and their babies and yet in the same breath telling me to put a hold on TTC again this summer feels completely unfair, and I get jealous and bitter. It's ugly.

And now, I'm going to get some work done.

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Yup.

That's not necessarily a cyst. And, actually, I'm not sure that it's bad to have a cyst at this point. Clomid is supposed to make you ovulate "nice and strong" in the condescendaspeak of the doctors, so it's supposed to create a good, progesterone producing luteal cyst.
The other thing to keep an eye out for is OHSS:

The main risk associated with Clomid use is the potential for developing Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS). OHSS can occur with the use of any type of ovulation stimulating drug. It happens when cysts begin to form on the ovaries, causing them to swell to a very large size. Typically, OHSS disappears without treatment but, without proper monitoring, the syndrome can become dangerous. Potential complications include:
kidney problems
liver problems
fluid collection in the lungs and stomach
twisting of the ovaries
It is essential that your fertility specialist monitor you for signs of OHSS while you are taking Clomid.
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I've heard horror stories of folks getting heaps of fluid drained off because of it. Very painful too. And it screws the cycle.

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