FtMPapa - so sorry that you are feeling crappy. TTC is a whirldwind, and it can be really hard when a partner isn't as involved as you are, or as you would like them to be (and when people we know get pregnant so easily, no matter how much we love them). hugs to you.
Frog - thinking of you and sending positive, peaceful procedure vibes your way.
Coco - how are you doing? I'm so sorry you have to sit out next month.
Wannabemoms - how are things with you?
As for me -
We missed this past month because (I think!) I O'ed early. Hoping to catch it this month, but I'm really anxious about it (and a myriad of other things!) I'm on cd 13 and waiting....
hugs to all -
Life is strange and wonderful. Me , DP , DS (3/09) , 3 and 4
And the best news: Everything's fine! The doc actually said that there's nothing better he could have seen. I'm very pleased! Even if I don't get pregnant, at least I know that I haven't blown many, many dollars on swimmers that could NEVER have made it to their destination. And that's something, for sure.
turtle was a dream--she came and picked me up from work when the xanax made me too loopy to stay (these sorts of procedures can be triggery for me) and provided me with fabulous banana pudding when it was all over.
Frog, so glad your HSG went well and everything looked great.
Pran, sister, your chart is so lovely looking!
As for the process and relief and doubt. SO THERE! When we decided to take a two month break I couldn't have been happier. But about a week into it I started freaking out that we might be making a mistake with trying to have a baby. Our life right now is awesome and I want to throw a baby into it for why? I'm still very shaky about it all but I also still have a month that we're on break to go. I'm hoping some clarity about the situation will come to me in that time. If not I'm not afraid anymore of extending our short break into a long one. It's just amazing how the fast the fog lifts when you take yourself out of the process, take a step back and look at what your doing.
I say go out and drink something alcoholic and preferably caffeinated, dye your hair with something toxic, eat non-organic grapes, do a full-contact karate class, and climb real high up a ladder or three. Everything you're supposed to avoid while preggers, you know? To my mind, it's like shaking your fist at the universe. (I know it's not the same, but I did most of that after my first BFN last month. I felt a little better after.)
Mom to DS (3) and a new baby! Geeked to be married to my love
Smartycat...sorry you and Quasar are still struggling with what direction you want to go in next. You know there are plenty of us on here who are ready to just listen if that's what you need. Hang in there.
So...looks like it's about that time to pass the reigns on being threadkeeper. Any takers??
There are days when my reluctant-to-get-excited-about-a-baby-partner gets so excited about his friends who are having twins in a few months (totally straight, totally unplanned, and I'm totally jealous and bitter) that I want to scream.
Seeing him be excited about their pregnancy and their babies and yet in the same breath telling me to put a hold on TTC again this summer feels completely unfair, and I get jealous and bitter. It's ugly.
And now, I'm going to get some work done.
It's hard, ttc-ing in that space between singlehood and parenting partnership. I don't have any huge words of advice. You know how my story turned out. Just wanted to say that I know the process is never easy.
A, partner to J, mama to O, now with a new username!
Building queer family since 2008!
(and oh, did i mention we're having twins?!?)