36 weeks, 4 days
Well, add me to the crabby, moody, and miserable list. Actually, today wasn't so bad but then DH decides to go to a friend's house to watch the baseball game this evening. I just don't think he gets how exhausting it is for me to just LIVE right now...like walking around, getting up from a couch, etc. Anyways, he is supposedly taking DD out for "hours" tomorrow so I can finish my paper (note that doesn't say "take a long nap" or "sit and read a book", grumble, grumble). It hurts to walk, it hurts when baby moves, it hurts in bed....I'm just so darned miserable being pregnant. And yeah, I have two pairs of pants that still fit me and even they get restrictive after a while. I so hear you on "wrapping a sheet around me and calling it a day", lol.
I think the whole "are we crazy bringing a baby into this world" thing is really common and probably been around for centuries. I've never felt that way, personally, as I think the world is pretty much always full of awful things going on. I just feel blessed to be in a place where those things aren't directly affecting me. Still, I haven't watched the news in ages (no TV) and am a bit clueless about what is going on these days, which is probably for the better b/c in my hormonal state the US election news would probably send me into a real tizzy.
Had to giggle at all the "TMI" talk. I've been so afraid to "take care of things" because I worry that an orgasm will trigger labour, but then I think I really need to de-stress and that's the best way to do it, lol. Still, I'm making myself wait until the baby clothes are sorted and washed, lol. Flitters, I don't know if this is quite the same thing as you experienced, but the last couple times I "took care of things" I noticed I felt like a giant sponge down there. I think it's very normal b/c the baby puts pressure on the veins....actually it's almost like how a male erection works: blood rushes down there but can't get away easily.
Thanks for the encouraging words from the BTDT with 2 mamas....I'm not worried about the love and bonding part, but I'm starting to resign myself to the fact that Emily is basically going to get cold-turkey, CIO'd, weaned when I'm in hospital, and my heart is breaking b/c there is nothign I can do about it. She's not done teething, and her nose has been runny all week (she's even snoring b/c of it) and she is waking about three times a night to nurse. It's nothing like it was, but the fact is DH will just not do for her. With two weeks to go until the birth, I just can't see how we're going to prepare her for this. I've tried talking to her but she doesn't get it. It is really distressing me immensely to think she's going to be waking at night and bawling for her mama and will eventually cry herself to sleep. I never, ever wanted this for her.
With all that said, her need for me at night scares me. How I wish DH could put her to sleep, and comfort her at night. She is jammed up against me all night, pushing me to the edge of the bed....what's going to happen when baby is there?? I'm thinking of getting a king size and putting it next to the queen, but frankly DD is such a bed hog with me....ugh. I'm just a bundle of worries tonight. What happens when DD is crying for me and baby is crying for me....geez, do I sound like a basketcase, or what??
Carrie, I'm not sure I added you to the list....I'm sorry. Could you PM me and remind me what your EDD is so I can add you? Welcome, btw!!
Good birthing vibes to Gretchen!!
I bought my beads! Some time in the next few days I'll get them mailed out...
Also, thanks for the gift suggestions re: cousin's generous offer. I realized that we are going to need a car seat for Sasha when he outgrows his infant seat, but DD will still be using hers at that time (as a booster, probably) so we will need another one...and I'm going to take advantage of cousin's generosity to get my dream: a Britax! The jogging stroller is a good idea, but realistically with winter on it's way I probably won't use such a thing until spring (and can you put a tiny baby in them anyways?) so we'll wait until then to decide what we need. Maybe by then DD will be amenable to walking more and the Sit n' Stand would work for us. And yes, I would LOVE to bike but I didn't think you could have a baby on a bike until they were at least a year old (even in those trailer thingys). I have sort of resigned myself to the fact that I'm not going to be on a bike for a while. Mind you, have you guys seen those three-wheelers? they are basically a tricycle for adults. Now that I would feel safe riding on while wearing baby, b/c they can't tip over. Still, they aren't cheap and once baby is about a year they can sit in a regular bike seat so....
Geez, I'm rambling. My brain is fried. I'm feeling like a crampy, moody cow these days. Sometimes I wonder how my DH puts up with me. Often I wonder how I put up with him, lol. But it's all good, huh?