Today my best friend called me up and said "I'm taking you out for a pedicure!". It was lovely. I was so embarassed at my rotten toenails: I had cut them all short thinking I wasn't going to get a pedicure for ages, and had actually broken one of the small ones in half. I'm sure the pedicurist was horrified. But all the massaging and callous-removing and cuticle-shaping felt so wonderful! It was super sweet of my friend to think of me that way, and it really put me in such a better mood.
I'd had a lot of insomnia last night, and I simply cannot get comfortable these days. At one point I was trying to change positions and pulled something in my groin - it hurt so much I cried out. DH thought my water had broken or something! Anyways, I was very emotional today, broke down in tears over something trivial...I just read all your posts, girls, about the moodiness, the general discomfort etc and I feel so much better to have you all to commiserate with. I feel like all I do is whine to people. The other day my Dad asked how I was, and I realized I was sounding like those old people who list all their aches and conditions whenever you ask them "how are you?". So I'm trying not to complain too much.
I did use the insomnia to come to a decision however, I'm letting go of my paper until after Sasha is born. I was hoping to have it ready for submission before Friday. Yesterday DH was out all day with DD so I could work on it, then I had a two hour phone meeting with my boss in the evening, so DH was watching DD then, too. It was stressful for him, and stressful for me, as me and boss tried to fit in more phone meetings, etc. In the middle of the night I realized that this paper was taking over everything, and the baby's birth was becoming an unwelcome deadline. I realized that I just can't get it done, and decided to just let it go for now. I want to savour these last few precious days, not be stressing out about something work-related. I'm supposed to have a phone meeting tomorrow evening, but that is my "date night" with DH and frankly, it's a priority for me!! So I'm gonna cancel with my boss. He may be disappointed but oh well...this is a very special time in my family's life and it's not worth getting stressed out over something to do with work!! I have felt a huge load off ever since I made the decision.
gottaknit: your boss's comment made me laugh. my mother adopted me and my brother, so has never been pregnant. when we were discussing her flying out to boston for emily's birth, she was upset that I couldn't give her a set date. she thought the due date was "it" (like the baby can count exactly 40 weeks, lol). When I explained to her that babies can come any time around the due date she said (and this is a direct quote) "Well how does anybody plan these things then??" :LOL
No bikini wax but I did try to give my self a "trim" down there. Forget it. I can't see a thing and with my luck I'll slice off a peice of my labia, lol. I'm tempted to ask DH to do it, but god only knows what things look like down there these days. I'm almost afraid if he sees it he won't ever want to go back there!
I envy those of you whose babies have dropped. Sasha feels so incredibly low to me, and I'm getting poked constantly in my cervix and my groin...but I have been getting lots of shortness of breath, and heartburn (had a Maalox shooter last night) so I'm guessing he's still not dropped. Which is moot for my birth, but might make me feel a bit more comfy!
I think I felt my first contraction today. I was walking to the store around the corner and my whole lower back got tight. It felt alot like a menstrual cramp and it lasted a while. I haven't even had BH in ages now, just the sharp, quick (painful!) pokes from Sasha. So this was interesting to me. I sort of want to feel some contractions just to say I have!
On the toddler front, thank goodness I can report that I have my kid back again. I guess teething is over, because she has been her usual wonderful self lately. She reads to herself alot, entertains herself alot, and has just been generally wonderful. What a relief!!! I was starting to freak about handling her and a new baby when she was being so clingy and teary, etc. My heart goes out to those of you whose toddlers are still making life rough. I know the little dears are having a rough time, but it sure doesn't make it easier for us!
ameliabedelia: I think I posted earlier that my hospital stay was starting to seem like a pending holiday, so I can relate to your feelings. I was so sure I'd be checking out early if I could, but now I'm thinking I might not, lol. It's thanksgiving weekend here and we are planning a dinnner on Sunday night b/c we have friends visiting in town (they just had their first baby two months ago), but now I'm thinking I probably won't be there for it. We'll see how it goes...I guess it mostly depends on how Emily is handling being away from me. If she's fine I might take advantage of the break. Sleeping all day with a newborn sounds heavenly right now!!
Okay, I think I've babbled enough for today. DD actually went down early this evening and DH is out at soccer practice, so I'm enjoying this time to read and reply thoroughly! Only three more days until my baby is born...unbelievable!!!
Big labour vibes to you, Mirthfulmum!!!!