Well, tomorrow is my "due date." Hard to believe! Other than the bizarreness of the "not knowing when" factor, I'm really in no rush for the baby to come. I feel pretty good, and I just think that when the time is right the she will come. I've been blessed with a great pregnancy, although I am starting to get uncomfortable.
I passed the big milestone I wanted to pass -- my last day of work prior to maternity leave was Friday. Now, dh and I are doing all sorts of great house projects while we wait it out.
A couple of people wrote how they are somewhat saddened by the change from a family of 3 to a family of 4. I'm going through something similar, but in the reverse. My two wonderful step-sons recently moved with their mom from living 45 minutes away, to living around the corner. This is just what we wanted and hoped for, but all of a sudden the boys are here nearly every day (they come here after school until she gets home from work) -- and it is a big change for us. Meanwhile, I feel deeply saddened that I won't get to have that extensive intimate alone time with my new baby. The boys are great kids, incredibly well behaved, but between supervising homework, making snacks and/or dinner, and weekend time -- it is a lot to keep up with. I feel like this is my one chance to feel like a new mother, and I'm missing out on it. I had a little meltdown this morning about it, but I don't want to fully share how I feel with dh because I don't want him to feel guilty about having the boys around. He is SO happy to have them be a part of his every day life again, and I don't want to spoil that for him in any way. Anyway, I try to think of it as a blessing to have lots of great kids around, but I have to admit that I am sad at the same time.
The only other thing worth mentioning is that I am going a bit crazy trying to figure out all the cloth diapering stuff. I can't wait until I'm an "old pro." But until then, it is a big hassle to figure out which ones to use, how to pre-wash them, and how to launder them. There is a lot of conflicting info out there!
The midwife said on Monday that I am 1 cm dialated and 50% effaced. She thinks I'll have the baby within the week. I guess...!