DH and I had pretty much decided to keep our house savings for just that, but reading here brings back the nagging feeling about birthing at home. I have a friend who is a massage therapist, and she owns her own business. She recently invited a mw to share her office space, and she had been recommedning this woman to me before (she had a hb with her last and said she could help find me a good mw). My friend is also doing the doula class this weekend, and she has offered me free doula services, as well as massage during labour. But I still don't know... Our hosptial is really pretty good, and the doc I have this time seems pretty decent. The only things I see being a problem are: I want to cut the cord after it stops pulsing, and I am starting to look into not having the vit K and eyedrops. I have my second appt with my ob next week, so I think I'll ask her about these things. If they aren't willing to be flexible, I'll be even more keen on hb. Also, I want to do hypnobirthing again, and I am certain I could relax better in my bedroom than at the hosp.
Last night I dreamt about labour, and it was pretty vague, but I ended up at a different hospital (not the maternity one), and all I recall is that I didn't get to hold my baby until sometime well after the birth. Dh brought her to see me, and I had my back turned, and he was describing her to me, and I felt so disconnected, I didn't even care to turn around at first. It had been hours or days, and I could remember nothing at all about even being in labour.
The bright side is we are considering moving to a cheaper apartment, and if we do that, it may be much easier to save the money for a hb. However, I d love this place, and I have a lot of friends nearby, who I hoped to have at the hb. I don't know what's going to happen. I'm just rambling now.
And hey, a part of me is a teensy but afraid of having a hb! And I'll kick myself if I land in the hosp. anyway for an induction, as I had to have one last time when my water broke, but I had no contrax.