All right then, let me start from the beginning. I track my cycles w/cyclebeads, and I realized like the same day that we got together that it was the peak day for me to be ovulating. I've been thinking I could be pg since then!
I've been tired, weepy, emotional and depressed, I've been nauseated after eating and smelling strong scents, my breasts have "dried up" over the last week or two and they'd tingle whenever Lili nursed the same like they would for a let-down when she was exclusively nursing, etc.... In short, I really felt pg!
I ususally have on hand those super-sensitive pg tests you can buy online--they're supposed to be able to detect pgcy like 11 days before your period starts...(www.babyhopes.com
FYI)...well I ran out and just bought some generic type ones at the grocery store. I was already like 3 days late, took one, nothing. Next one, next day, maybe a faint line I couldn't tell. Third one, (now I'm like 5 days late--never been that late before that I know of). Well, I had to buy more tests! So I buy 1st response--supposedly a little better quality--took one yesterday, a faint line, but defininitely a line! I KNEW it!
Me and dh instantly start freaking out about carseat arrangements in our little cavalier, buying more cloth diapers, where are we gonna have this kid w/no midwife in town (just moved here), etc... You know how a positive result is supposed to stay visible on the test for weeks on end, well mine faded within a couple of hours...hmmm.
Well, this morning, I didn't pee all night and didn't drown myself w/water before bedtime
just to be sure the test would be accurate, and this morning, NOTHING. Not even a hint or a ghost of a line. And then I go to the bathroom and lo and behold, pinkish spotting--exactly like I get just before my period.
So what the HECK??!?! Am I pg? Was I never?? Did I have an early misscarriage?? (I've had this same thing happen before and I still don't know if it was an early misscarriage--I just got my period super-late and did a bunch of freaking out and pee-testing!)
I am super stressed-out and confused--I will keep y'all posted--please share your thoughts.
BTW around the 5th of the month (when I didn't have any symptoms to really suspect anything yet) I had a wicked cold and took Sudafed and double doses of Advil twice, thinking I couldn't possibly be pg (stupid I KNOW), and I've also developed a Starbucks habit since we moved here which has me drinking unprecedented amounts of caffeine several times a week
For the record those are my confessions
Thanks for your help everyone