Is anyone else feeling totally overwhelmed? Joe is my fourth child but he might as well be my twelfth, as overwhelmed as I feel. It feels like everything is falling on top of me, like I'm drowning in my life! I can't ever get caught up on anything, the kids are driving me crazy, and I just want to pee without an audience!
I don't have PPD; I've had that before and know what it feels like. I'm not crying or sad, just feel stressed and unable to keep up with LIFE. It's like I keep trying to do everything but at the end of the day, after I've spent all day taking care of what I'm supposed to take care of, nothing has actually been accomplished. The laundry pile is still higher than me because even though I did four loads the baby had to have his clothes changed five times so there are clothes and blankets and spitup rags added; Alec played in the mud and had potty accidents, so there are several changes of his clothes added; I had to change my shirt a couple times due to baby spitup, people took showers so there are towels; the older kids provide a full load each day together, etc. I run the dishwasher at least twice a day but there are still dishes on the counter at the end of the day, along with the pots and pans from dinner; the house is never tidy because as soon as I pick up toys Alec pulls them out again; the girls leave books and papers all over, etc.
I could go on and on, but you guys know what I mean.
It's all just TOO MUCH! All that plus chauffering everyone around to their activities, homeschooling, nursing an infant and a 3-year old, library books overdue, bills haven't been paid, I need a shower....OMG, I just want to go back to bed. But by myself, with nobody touching me or wanting nummies!
Please tell me I'm not alone in feeling like this!