BBM, more thoughts. Re flax seeds. Make sure you grind them because if you eat the seeds whole, well, they come out whole. Also, I know that you said $$ was an issue, but is there any way you can get a mother's helper or something like that? As I mentioned before, I had a sitter come when DD2 was still quite young, and she primarily hung out with DD1 while I kept DD2 in the bouncer or something. I would have let her keep both, but it was cheaper for me for her to only watch one.
On the thyroid issue. I have also wondered if I have/had a problem. My tests checked out normal (even though I had many symptoms indicative of a thyroid problem). I have since read that there are different types of tests, as well as sometimes a problem can be hard to detect. I did the "iodine" test some time ago, in that you put a patch of iodine somewhere on your body (like 3x3 on your stomach) and see how long it stays orange. It should stay for 24 hours. Initially when I did it it was gone completely in about 4 hours. Now I still see something faint after 10 or so hours. I use the patch as my supplement.
Re meds. I fought taking them for a long time. I tried fish oils, B vit, inosotol and 5-HTP, running, among other things that escape me right now. Finally, I gave in to taking an anti-depressant and found the change to be remarkable. That and therapy (both individual and group) for me have been life-changing. I cringe at how I acted with my children (and also husband, but that doesn't cut to the heart as much as the kids) prior to getting any of this under control. I will also say that we are in significant debt, which is largely due to a more systemic problem (waiting for DH's career to take off), but I CANNOT not do these things for myself. I am so very thankful to have made the personal breakthroughs that I have in the past year. I feel that I am less angry, less critical, less depressed, more fun, more open, more easy-going and generally even-keeled than ever before. Not sure if any of this resonates with you, but I just thought I would share.
Ok, must get off here and on with my day. It was thwarted from the beginning because the car won't start, which we found out as I was going to take the kids to Music Together. We got a new thermostat and now are dealing with a partly warm house and partly freezing house. DH's work was canceled for today, so at least he can help deal with some of these things. I have a mess of things to get packed up to ship that I sold (yea!), but am stressed that I have been undercharging as I wasn't figuring in paypal fees, and I can't seem to log into our bank account to set up another paypal account w/o fees. I am giving a massage tonight -- a barter with my therapist for paying for group -- and prior to that I plan on finally going to a yoga class where I work. All good, but I am just feeling stressed by it. And my sister wants to chat sometime this afternoon, and I owe her a response to an email where we are discussing stuff about our family/childhood as we have been dealing with it lately in therapy. I am not exactly shirking, but it is heavy.
Finally, to answer a question that was asked some time ago, I am a massage therapist. I am currently working very parttime (like 0-5 massages a week), all by appointment. I am thankful that I can work that little and it still is worth it. Not too many jobs let you just work an hour at a time and still be worth the effort.
Happy Friday to all. The extreme cold spell is starting to lift! It is supposed to be a high of freezing today. Yahooo!