Well, I made it to my first meeting on Thursday and must admit I was only 'half' there. I have had such enormous stress at home, and yesterday I came very close to a total meltdown. So bad that SIL took DD for the morning so that I could grocery shop in peace. GD is SOOOOO hard when you have been raised 'by the hand' and your kid is doing the typical 2yr old defiant thing. grrr...
: And DH is self-employed and bring home no $$, and, and, and... KWIM?
So, SIL ended up calling DH who called me (in the middle of the store) and I ended up bawling AGAIN (it's been a daily thing). I then composed myself and finished shopping. It was pretty easy to stay OP that morning, core-style, since I just wasn't hungry. Then I got home to find out that DH had called my bff's to see who could take me out for a while. So, bff and I went out to the casino, for dinner only (certainly no gambling, money is the MAJOR source of stress) and drinks. And dinner was FAB. I had a chicken dish, with polenta and apples, a grape salad, so doesn't sound too bad, right? Yeah, except for the basket of crusty bread we shared. But at least I dipped it in OO
... That counts toward the healthy fats, right? So if you don't count the glass of chianti, and the 2 coffees w/baileys and wh.cream, and the brownie sundae that was TOTALLY not worth the calories, I didn't do TOO badly, right?
Considering I was totally eating emotionally (luckily not slobbering and sobbing thru dinner) I didn't do too badly at all. Oh well.
I started from scratch today, but didn't re-do the points that I used earlier in the day yesterday, and have done really well today, except that I have been STARVING freaking hungry all day!!!
: So I had a great salad w/tuna for lunch, then the almost FF popcorn, and then the FF yogurt w/frz berries. Then a cheese stick a little while ago. Now I have to make dinner, and try not to eat as I go.