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#31 of 46 Old 03-26-2011, 05:46 PM
 
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Oh, I can completely and entirely relate to the anger. I was livid for a good year or so. I felt much like you; that I had been abused, raped, and held back. It wasn't until I went to therapy and told that what I went through was a form of religious abuse. It's normal to be angry and I can tell you, it does pass. Occasionally, I'll feel that anger again; recently when Boyd K Packer made that horrendous talk about homosexuality, I was so mad. Furious. But now I can pinpoint where the anger comes from. 

 

I've been out of the church for going on...9 years now? Wow. So I can tell you, this part passes, and you will get less angry. I'm not mad at the church; I don't agree with their teachings, and I will speak candidly about the church, and their doctrine. I can laugh about a lot of the things I went through. 

 

My relationship with my family is still...well, I'm still the dark horse. The outsider. DH says they treat me like I'm not one of them. And it's true. They definitely have a hard time accepting my decision to leave fully. I had to tell my dad a couple years ago, that I was never coming back. Prayers or not, but that he should stop wishing upon a star. They've since stopped telling me that they pray for my soul :P 

 

If you ever need to talk, let me know. This is the toughest part to get through!

 

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Thanks for taking the time to share Teale. Crazy what you went through with your family. Things are really weird with mine and the family acts as if I am an outsider, dark horse. Interesting what you felt about the temple as that was the big turning point for me. I just wanted to scream as I went through the session for the first time and felt totally horrid and no one was have a problem with what was going on. I thought "am I the only one feeling like this, wake up people!" I never went back after that.


It has been several months since I left mormonism, and I am now feeling anger towards the church and everything about it. I feel like I was robbed or more like raped 25 years of my life. I am speaking up now that the sexual oppression they put me through might as well have been real abuse.


 

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Why did you leave or stay?

I left because I didn't believe it, and I didn't want to limit my life by following rules that stemmed from a belief I didn't have. 

 

How did your family handle it?  How did your spouse or kids handle it?

Not well. I wasn't married, I was 18. I stopped going to church the week I turned 18, because my dad said he couldn't force me to go anymore. I haven't been back to a church building since, except for my grandfather's funeral. My spouse wouldn't be my spouse if I hadn't left. 

My mom is unwilling to accept it. She thinks I'll inevitably come back. My dad just doesn't bring it up.  

 

Is it possible to be a semi mormon believing in some things and not others?

I don't think so. Mormonism is not a 'pick and choose' religion. Either you believe the whole package or you don't believe any of it. It doesn't mean they're wrong about everything. But if some things are wrong, the religion is wrong, IMO. 

 

How do you raise your kids now if you have any?

Agnostic. We don't raise our kids to have any belief. It's their choice when they're older. 

 

Did any evil things happen to you for "rebeling"?

Nope.  

 

How is it I was born and raised LDS, and was told to pray to know the truth and felt right about it and now I am feeling right to leave?  Were those feeling a lie or did God change?

Because it was never true to begin with. I think those feelings were a sense of community and belonging. And sometimes the way I get choked up over a beautiful song or poem. Beauty is beauty, kwim? And sometimes the church seemed beautiful. 

 

Did you ever read any anti moron literature in your decsion to leave?  I have yet to research any as I feel like I will be lied to or not like what I read.

Not really. I read a couple of things online. But mostly it was my own realizations. 

 

In a most light discission, did you go to the temple and how do you feel about that now?

I did. It seemed weird at the time. It seems even weirder to me now. 

 

Do you still read the BOM?

Never. I don't even have one. 

 

If you go to church still, do you take the sacrement?

N/A

 

And most of all- for those who had the church totally engrained in every bit of who they were, how do you go about leaving the church as I feel like by doing so I have no idea who I am anymore?

I was born and raised Mormon. I was born to a Mormon young woman who put me up for adoption through the LDS adoption agency, adopted to a devoutly Mormon. My parents bleed Mormonism. It's everything they are. Without it, they would lose themselves.

There were a few rough years where I had to stop and ask myself, is this my opinion, or what I was told should be my opinion? My opinion is nothing like what I thought it was.  

 

 

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Bluebird, and all the other commenters, thank you. Bluebird, I feel like so much of your story echoes mine, and I appreciate a forum that is less bitter and angry than most.

 

I am currently trying to figure out where I stand with the church. It is all I've ever known and it is scary to jump off the cliff into the unknown. My brother is leaving on a mission in a few weeks and my oldest son would get baptized in May. I am scared of what my family will think, since they are all fully invested and I think it would deeply hurt them if my family and I left the church.

 

I second feministmormonhousewives.org. There is a great mix of people on there with a broad range of activity (non-Mormon, active, inactive). I have found a community there that I can relate to. My husband recently joined postmormon.org, but there is much bitterness and anger there. RIght now I feel like I am grieving more than feeling angry about the church.

 

THanks for sharing your journey with us.

 

 

 

Why did you leave or stay?

Leaning toward leaving. My husband is pretty much checked out, but is staying because he knows it is a harder decision for me.

 

How did your family handle it?  How did your spouse or kids handle it?

My spouse and I are very open in our communication with each other. We haven't discussed it with our kids yet (all boys, ages 7,5,3, and 1), mostly because I don't know where I stand yet. All my immediate family are active, deeply believing members of the church. It would break their hearts if we left. It is the only thing keeping me in. 

 

Is it possible to be a semi mormon believing in some things and not others?

I don't know.

 

How do you raise your kids now if you have any?

UNdecided. I would like to find some sort of religious community to raise them in, but I don't think I am giong to find anything that works for me. We will probably end up being deeply involved in the community we live in and finding similarly-minded people who want to raise their kids morally but without much organized religion.

 

Did any evil things happen to you for "rebeling"?

I'm not all the way there yet. I know that when I feel my relationship with God is distant (unrelated to church activity), I am less patient with my kids and am less like the person I want to be. However, I don't think that is church related.

 

How is it I was born and raised LDS, and was told to pray to know the truth and felt right about it and now I am feeling right to leave?  Were those feeling a lie or did God change?

I agree with other commenters, who have mentined that there is a lot of good in the world. LDS people don't have a monopoly on good feelings. I believe that the church does a lot of good for a lot of people. When it ceases doing good for you (and you disagree with major points of doctrine), it is probably time to move on.

 

Did you ever read any anti moron literature in your decsion to leave?  I have yet to research any as I feel like I will be lied to or not like what I read.

My doubts mostly stemmed from internal thoughts and have been supported by things I have read. I don't like reading negative stuff, whether it is about the MOrmons, the Catholics, or the Hindus. I don't think it is productive and it doesn't help me become a better person.

 

In a most light discission, did you go to the temple and how do you feel about that now?

Yes, married in the temple and attended regularly for a while. It was a never a place of great peace for me; I always went to the mountains to pray. 

 

Do you still read the BOM?

Occasionally, I believe that there is good to be found in a lot of literature and religious texts, so I take the good and go with it.

 

If you go to church still, do you take the sacrement?

yes

 

And most of all- for those who had the church totally engrained in every bit of who they were, how do you go about leaving the church as I feel like by doing so I have no idea who I am anymore?

Let me konw when you figure that out - I feel the same way. I do have some friends that are sending in their letters of resignation this week, but I'm not there yet.

 

 

Thanks again for a forum of support.  

 

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A lot of people question where they are religiously. Many of them return to where they started.

 

I am not Mormon, but I find a lot of truths in it. Now, since I am not LDS, I do not know everything about it. But if it were not for my dh's objections, we would have converted years ago. I am unsure what things you are taking issue with, what you do not believe in, that sort of thing. But it is completely ok to question where you are at and even make changes. 

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blue bird I just want to say that I am very happy for you! My dh and I had a couple of friends some years back that were LDS. They were the most confusing pair. Great people but obviously highly convicted and struggling with a lot of suppression, guilt and sadness....I wanted so badly for them to see the way they were being controlled...

Anyway, I read through thisconversation and came to the post where you answered your own questions and it nearly brought me to tears. I am so happy for you, for your liberation and what it means for your future; living your own life and freedom to love and be loved by your husband. I wish you all the very best! And will pray for you as you deal with the resulting clash with your parents.

 

Oh and I thought I might like to answer this one of your questions ......

How is it I was born and raised LDS, and was told to pray to know the truth and felt right about it and now I am feeling right to leave?  Were those feeling a lie or did God change? 

 

I believe that the Lord always answers those who seek Him. He is not restricted in any way by where you are. My friends for example, the husband I do not believe was crying out to God with an honest, open, maleable heart. The wife on the other hand, when I knew her, was crying out genuinely seeking Him, and I believe that she was getting answers from Him. Unfortunately I think that when she saw the Lord from whom she was hearing was incompatible with the church's portrayal of God I think she let go of Him. ...... .............. but the point is when someone  cries out to God He will answer. And if He led you to leave the church and to the freedom you are experiencing now then I would say keep looking to Him! He will continue to reveal Himself.

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great questions!

 

i'm excited to answer them, i will sometime this weekend :)

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I noticed that some of you have been to feministmormonhousewives - great site - or postmormon.org. I found postmormon.org to be freeing for the first few months and then way too angry after that. If you want a recommendation for a friendlier, more intellectual board that is postmormon, message me and I'll send you the link. I'd rather not put it here because last time I did that, I had some Mormon mothers from here follow me and get really hateful. So I just pm it now. :)

 

 

I don't have enough energy to answer the questions right now, but wanted to say that anger is a normal part of leaving Mormonism - especially if you were raised in it. The feelings of betrayal are strong once you start to realize how extensively you were lied to and used. Don't deny the anger, but don't dwell their either. My brother took 2 years to work through his anger, my older sister took 11 months, though the feminist issue can still get her going, ;) and I took probably 6 months. But I was pregnant and not wanting to be so angry while pregnant. :) All of us took as long as we needed to to get through it - my brother had been damaged the most by it.

 

 

 

 



 


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Thanks Les! It is freeing! I hope your friends find peace where they are at or finally break away to a new life.

Momma4fun, oh please post more. Your story a while back is actually what got me thinking about how I don't agree with mormonism. I wish the mods didn't delete it. I always wanted to tell you it really changed my life, got me to finally think for myself. Thank you!

Niamh, I will be pm'ing you. Oh but I am still into the anger, and now totally fine with it so I will be checking out postmormon.org. Lol!
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Why did you leave or stay? 

 

many mormons leave when they discover the actually documented truth about joseph smith, the origins of the church, and many other issues that the church covers up or doesn't tell the whole truth about. others leave because they learn about other religions and find inconsistencies or things that don't ring true for them within the church doctrine, or they open their eyes and realize the complete improbability and lack of any evidence for the book of mormon.
 
while these issues would eventually put the nail in the coffin for me, i first left for social and emotional issues such as what i talk about below. you could say my exit from the church was based more on an exit from the concept that there is any one true religion, although i chose to officially resign my membership for doctrinal reasons in the end.
 
- first of all, heavenly father and jesus kind of always scared the crap out of me. they seemed cruel and unfair, i had nightmares of the second coming and evil spirits frequently. they way they were taught to me at home and as a youth in church felt very imprisoning and spiritually and emotionally abusive.
 

- i grew up outside of utah and always noticed from a young age that non-member families were seemingly closer, more accepting of each other and had way more fun together than my "eternal family" did. they had rich full loving lives where the kids weren't made to feel incredibly guilty all the time! i was perplexed at how they could be truly kind and good people even without the fullness of the gospel. imagine that! and yet my parents spoke of them with such negative judgement.

 

- by high school i had extremely low self worth and guilt over the law of chastity and masturbation. while i could see some value in the social structure of the church,  i was also struck by the playing of favorites and the gossiping and the dire importance of keeping up appearances -- and that made me very disillusioned. compared to what i knew of other religions and from books and movies and friends, i found the church procedures and my family to be full of hypocrisy and unrealistic expectations. i still totally believed that the gospel was true, knew the doctrine inside and out, was a model laurel's president, but there was always a deep nagging underlying feeling that the way the church worked was not consistent with who Jesus was supposed to be.

 

- i became inactive after high school. church was very uncomfortable for me. i researched other religious beliefs and found so much more that resonated with me. it wasn't unti i married a non-member and was around 24-25  that i finally got up the guts to google joseph smith and find out the truth.  then i discovered ALL the truth, how illogical and based on untruths the creation of the book of mormon and church was. i spent some time just focusing on being joyful christianity influenced agnostic, but eventually i applied the same logic i had learned to the god question and i am now an atheist.

 

-last year after general conference and feeling so sick to my stomach around the prop 8 issue and the church's stance on gays, i decided even though i'm kinda proud i was raised in this unique wacky american culture that is mormonism, i could no longer in conscious remain a member of record.

 

so that in a very tight nutshell is why i left.

 

How did your family handle it?

 

as far as i know they are not aware that i have officially resigned. i have been the black sheep of my family since i was 16 and that has called for many shaming lectures, even a couple year or more long shunnings where there was no communication at all. at this point in time i am lucky to feel very strong with good personal boundaries finally developed. i have visited with my family a couple times in the past year after not seeing them for a few years and i am able to smile and enjoy them for who they are even though they stumble here and there to add there testimonies into normal conversations where ever possible. before, it used to be very difficult for me to be around them. 2 of my siblings know the extent of my disbelief. my parents don't want to have those kinds of conversations.

 

i will say it was hard. very very hard for many years. i'm almost 30 now and am relieved that it is getting better. the friendships i've made with other post mormons online were invaluable for helping me through these times.

 

Is it possible to be a semi mormon believing in some things and not others?

 

sure. a lot of mormons do this all the time. i did it for a good 5 years. the more i learned though, it became impossible to accept.

 

How do you raise your kids now if you have any?

 

i'm kind of an introverted person and have negative associations with attending church. there are some great religious communities out there with all the social benefits of the mormon church. if i were more inclined to need that sort of thing we would probably hang out at like a friends of quakers church or a unitarian universalist church.

 

otherwise i strongly feel i don't need a church or religion to model good social morals to my children. i just love them deeply, accept them for who they are. i'm not viewing them through a lens of-- they have to be good, they have to reach these milestones, they have to be spiritually obedient to me or they won't get to live with me forever. this is our life NOW, this is our chance to be together. i want them to go after their passions and dreams and have superb emotional and social health.

 

i also want them to hurry up and all get in school because i'm stick of being a stay at home mom and years beyond that lord knows i can't wait for them to be responsible adults that don't need me everyday so i can try and get some experience with traveling and dining out and just being a free woman by myself -- things i missed out on compared to my peers because i did kids and marriage instead of college and career.

 

i really appreciate this short video about a mom who left the church and how it has improved her parenting:  http://www.iamanexmormon.com/2011/03/families-are-together-forever-my-name-is-kerri-bodie-and-im-an-ex-mormon/

 

Did any evil things happen to you for "rebeling"?

 

i sure used to be scared they might. mostly i've had some crappy things happen to me because the church and my family did not prepare me to be a responsible independent woman. i made some really poor choices. for example i'm ever-facing a potential divorce with a man who is a great person, but i only married him because he'd be a good provider, there is 0 chemistry, 0 compatibility. my parents think my lack of a fulfilling intimate marriage is because i am a sinner, and sinner get themselves into such situations. they act like they don't remember encouraging me to go ahead and marry him after 3 MONTHS only of knowing each other. better to get married than have premarital sex. the church and my parents did not prepare me AT ALL to find a compatible partner. just make sure the guy meets certain items on the checklist and you're good to go, right?

 

i no longer believe in satan. i thought i believed in karma for a little bit but i don't believe in that anymore either. i also don't believe in ghosts. life just happens. like i said above, i used to fear evil spirits but came to know that was a very limiting and painful MAGICAL THINKING type belief that i am so glad no longer rules my world view and decision making.

 

i would say NO, nothing evil happened to me for not being a perfect mormon or for leaving. but there were some very painful situations with my family, and some awkward figuring out how to fit in with the real world type situations.

 

How is it I was born and raised LDS, and was told to pray to know the truth and felt right about it and now I am feeling right to leave?  Were those feeling a lie or did God change?

 

i won't get into prayer and god too much except for to say, trust yourself! 

 

i don't believe that we can speak to god and get answers from him thru prayer. if you do i respect that. i think prayer has worth because it's a period of meditation wherein we can consider everything that makes us who we are: our genes, our experiences, our childhoods, our needs and wants, our instincts, and sometimes personal insights come to us when we question things in this manner.

 

when you thought you got answers of the truthfulness of the gospel in the past, it's probably because it was in line with your fears and hopes and wants and needs. now you are dealing with a different set of those things, now that things aren't working for you like you were told they were. god didn't change, you changed.


Did you ever read any anti moron literature in your decsion to leave?  I have yet to research any as I feel like I will be lied to or not like what I read.

 

it took me quite a while to get up the guts to look up "anti" stuff. you have been told all your life that it is ANTI. it's true there are some ports of info out there that are hateful towards the church. today on the internet there is also, even mostly, very objective and factual looks at the church and it's doctrine.  if you feel like it, i would suggest looking at some basics like wikipedia, or this documentary PBS put out on mormons:  http://www.pbs.org/mormons/ .  there are sources of factual info about the church, where the sources are very very concerned with truth and integrity.

 

plus there's even things like actual arrest records and court records and newspaper articles of joseph smith and all his marriages and other things. the church calls these anti. the world calls them history.

 

fear and magical thinking has been used against you to not research the church. they tell you to only look at church sources. you know how they always say, if you're going to buy a car you go to the dealership? ummmm, no you don't. you get consumer reports and do research and ask your friends and read studies to find out what is the safest best car for your family.

 

 

In a most light discission, did you go to the temple and how do you feel about that now?

i did not go to the temple as an adult. i did as a teen. i have both heartwarming and weird memories. mostly i'm struck by remembering the intense pressure and guilt associated with being temple worthy. i am however fully educated on the processes of other covenants. i certainly have opinions on those, and have read many others' opinions on those. 
 
Do you still read the BOM?
 
i still own a couple. i've looked something up out of curiosity here and there over the past several years but no i don't read it. sometimes i like to giggle about horses and elephants and steel swords and thousands and thousands of dead warriors whose archeological evidence are supposedly somewhere in this world.
 
And most of all- for those who had the church totally engrained in every bit of who they were, how do you go about leaving the church as I feel like by doing so I have no idea who I am anymore?
 
HUGS to you. it gets better, it does. for many, leaving the church is breath of fresh air where they can fully develop themselves and get to know themselves and improve their lives right away. for me, the timing was coupled with the stress of raising young children, some depression etc etc, and i took it harder than i would like.
 
i definitely felt like i was no one sometimes, like my personality and abilities had been squashed or taken away from me by the strict religious indoctrination i grew up with and that i didn't know how to be in this new world. but i am so happy now, so excited to figure out what it really is that i want in life.  at first it was heartbreaking to lose my worldview and faith in god. now it is very empowering to know i'm in control. (now to just figure out how to take control! lol)
 
some people take a good look at the truth and decide it is best for them to stay in the church, as more of a "cafeteria" mormon. that wasn't for me and i don't regret it.
 
i know what you are going thru mama and i'm here if you want a buddy. :) there's also a lot more like me on websites you've been told about already. ;)
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oh i'm "yellow" on postmormon.org by the way. i don't post a lot on there anymore, actually did this weekend cause i got in the mood for some good mormon discussion (which is why i also checked over here and found this thread)

 

but let me know if you sign up over there, i'll be like hey everyone this is my friendbanana.gif

 

you can just straight up tell people you may not be ready for more "anti" type stuff yet and you'd get some really compassionate and informative responses

 

but this thread is great too, i just read everyone's responses, yay for mdc former mormons

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Just wanted to offer you some support!

 

My dh was raised Mormon.  I won't go into all the questions you asked since you seem to have figured out what you want to do.  But, I will share our story.  I was raised Roman Catholic, dh LDS.  We met in high school.  During our first year of dating, I was attending classes at my church in preparation for confirmation.  I had a great youth leader and they were really helpful in answering my questions, etc.  They even called up the LDS church and had two missionaries come to youth group for a "panel" style discussion where we could ask them any LDS questions we had.  At the same time, my dh was getting an unintentional education.  My family had ideas about the Mormon church.  Many of these came out in discussion.  My parents didn't really think we would end up getting married and they weren't trying to get him to leave his church.  To them, "this Mormon boy" was a great boyfriend because they knew I would be home by midnight and that he wouldn't be drinking/partying/etc when we were out.  My dh would go back with questions (that developed because of our conversations) and never got the answers he expected.  He says that it was like they were teaching him one thing as a child, but backpedaling as he got older.  As our relationship got stronger, I met with some of the missionaries, read parts of BOM, and did a lot of prayer.  I also watched my dh play ball on the church teams.  This was very enlightening.  No one tried to talk to me, say hi, or whatever.  I was the "evil", "Catholic" girl that Jason was dating.  I overheard their conversations.  It was hurtful.  I couldn't imagine becoming a part of that church.  I didn't tell Jason about those things until much later.  However, the church required him to distance himself from me on several occassions.  He spent more time with the bishop than any other teen I knew--all because of rumors that got around the high school.  (Bishops dd was in our grade.)  After high school, Jason ended up moving out of his house for a bit.  I think he needed time to clear his head and decide what he truly believed.  We weren't dating at that time.  He was getting close to 19 and I expected him to go on a mission.  He already knew that I wouldn't "wait" for him.  He decided to not go on a mission.  At that point, he was officially "inactive".  

 

We didn't marry until I was 21.  We had lots of things to work out.  He didn't want to be Mormon anymore, but he didn't associate with any other faith either.  I was/am willing to go to a variety of churches if he were to feel comfortable with one.  But, he doesn't.  So, our children are being raised as Roman Catholics.  Although, my kids all know that what I really want is for them to find their spiritual self--to be close to God as they grow.  In truth, part of the reason I am really good at teaching them to be Catholics is to give them a place to turn to spiritually.  I know that the hands of the LDS church will snatch them up quickly.  As an adult, I get more and more repulsed by that church.  Jason's family had a very hard time dealing with our decisions.  We do go to their church when someone is being sent off on a mission.  If they feel close to God and that this is truly their calling, then I want to be supportive.  We used to go for blessings, baptisms, etc but it was overwhelming.  People wouldn't leave my dh alone.  They still don't.  We have been married for 16 years now and still get missionaries that have been sent to us.  My dh looked into having his records taken out of the church books.  This is quite a process.  His mother would be devastated, and we believe treated poorly at church.  So, we decided to wait until she is gone.  Perhaps that is a cowardly way of looking at it, but it works for us.

 

Everytime a family member is sent on a mission, while they are at the MTC--we get a letter trying to get us to return to the church.  Some of them have been more persistent than others.  My mil has finally given up with the direct approach, but is quick to "educate" my girls about things.  We are constantly letting her know that we don't appreciate it.  The church "standards" aren't our standards--even if I like several of them.

 

For your child who is asking about church. . . if you are planning on finding another church, pehaps you can try out a new "community" style church each week.  With most churches, you can be fairly invisible if you wish.  However, if you just need time without a church, I understand but you might have to provide a bit of explanation to your three year old.  I can just imagine the next family function and someone says "we've missed you at church" and your three year old states that she "really wants to be there".

 

Good luck on your journey.  Oh, btw, I have read lots of stuff about the LDS church.  I don't think much of it would be helpful to someone questioning his/her faith.  There was one book that was pretty cool though.  If you want the title, pm me.

 

Amy


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