: GRRRR! I am a frustrated mama today! I left work yesterday with moderate contractions 5 minutes apart that got stronger and stronger but after a trip to the hospital, (a five hour trip
) Got sent back home with my blood pressure on the high side for me. The only reason they even let me go home was because the bp did get better while lying on my left side and I had a scheduled dr's appt this AM. So the contrations tapered off sometime in the night as I slept, and haven't been very strong or very regular today. I do know the contractions DID NOT dilate me any. My bp was still up at my appt today so now I am on bedrest
, no more work for me. That is the part I REALLY did not want to happen because I want to spend my time off hold my little boy, not sitting around watching the house be messy, and waiting for him. (Wanna talk about making my blood pressure go up, that's a good way to keep it high!!!) So I am whiny and grumpy and BORED today. Also frustrating is the fact that now I have to wear a pad from the Dr. checking my cervix today (OW! Did I mention that hurt!) I would not have minded if it would have started the contractions back up. I was really enjoying the rhythm of them last night, I just didn't like all the nurses saying, "Oh you have almost two weeks left, he doesn't need to come out yet!"
If one more woman said that to me I was going to strangle someone.
I work in a hospital and I am usually very comfortable in hospitals, having all the "just in case" stuff around makes me feel better I guess. But I now totally understand that feeling like you are a cat in labor
: and all you want to do is find your own private little corner of the world that is safe to have your little one in.
The only great thing about the night was that
Bryce had the night off, so he sat with me and held my hand, and talked to me, and made me laugh when I just wanted to scream and cry because I wanted to have my little Logan :infant: . He is always a lifesaver when I get on the verge of flipping out!
So I'm back to lay on the couch on my stupid left side and wait until Bryce gets off work. I hope little man decides to come out soon, or I am gonna freak out having to be still all the time. I have TOO much time to sit and think of all the things that could go wrong!
Somebody let me borrow some positive thoughts, I think I lost all mine!!!!!!!