Well, I've been AWOL from here a long time, can I come back?
I'm either 20w6d or 19w4d, depending on whether you like my "I think this is when I O'ed" EDD of 5/29 or the OB's u/s dating EDD of 6/7. Either way, I'm basically halfway there, right? Hooray! I hear people talk about how FAST the second pregnancy goes, but I don't feel like it's going quickly at all!
I've been feeling annoyed with myself lately for not being excited enough about this pregnancy. I definitely wanted to be pregnant, wanted another baby...but once pregnant, it didn't seem REAL. Maybe part of it is just how exhausted I have been until the past week or two. Maybe part of it is that my pregnancy with Griff was my first foray into motherhood/pregnancy and therefore much more "magical" and romantic and exciting. This time I'm chasing Mr. Romance around the house and hardly have time to remember I'm pg.
So far I haven't even started a pregnancy journal, don't really want to read name books, all that obsessing/planning stuff just hasn't happened yet.
But then...the good stuff is starting, so now I'm starting to feel much more excited. My appetite is perking up and I actually feel motivated to make meal plans and cook nice meals! Wuwu!
I actually finally LOOK pregnant as of this week, two people told me on two consecutive days. While I was feeling occasional flutters starting around 13/14 weeks or so, only in the past 1-2 weeks has it gotten stronger and more regular. I love waking up in the morning and feeling the baby squirm. It's the one time of day that she and I can just be by ourselves. ("She" is what we've been calling the baby, not sure if it's wishful girly thinking or some sort of intuition, we don't actually *know* anything!
). This week I have had a lot more energy and motivation, and I got a ton of yard work done. I felt really tired after each session, but it was a more happy, productive-feeling tired.
I'm starting to want to think more about names, and I'm starting to organize the little bit of shopping that we need to do.
Speaking of which, Annakiss, I hear ya on Target's clothing selection. I might try BRU, although I don't remember them being much better last time. My tastes this time are running toward the expensive and boutiquey stuff, but I've been good and have only bought a gender neutral item or two, on sale. I don't need much, whether we have a boy or a girl. Most of Griff's early clothing was pretty gender neutral. Hopefully we'll be finding a dresser for the baby soon (Griff's dresser doubles as the diaper station, so no room there for baby clothes!) and after that, I'll wash up some newborn clothing and diapers. Awwwwwwwww. Can I indulge in some Dreft? It's silly, but I love the smell of it.
Oh, OB visit last week...down another pound, making it a total of -10, which is the same as my last pregnancy, so I'm not worried. I expect to gain a couple of pounds this month and keep gaining from there, slow and steady. Next appt Feb 8th, with the "big" u/s - we're tempted to try to find out the gender, just because the possibility is there, but I really think both of us want to wait until this baby is born to know if he/she is a boy or a girl.
My DH is sick, too, and I feel a little guilty because my sympathy for him is being overridden by fear that I'll get sick, too. Keep your germs to yourself, honey! We're sleeping in separate beds tonight, between my bout of insomnia last night and his achiness/sniffling, we kept each other up all night. What a pair.
Oh, this is wild - I had my THIRD burning-house dream this pregnancy last night. Well, this time it was a school, but I was living in it and was preoccupied with the fact that my digital camera and computer (with all my photo files) were destroyed. During the other two dreams I was also preoccupied with lost possessions, mainly photos and other irreplaceable keepsakes. What the heck??
Tish, would you tell me how to catch the cleaning bug? Yardwork I can do, but my kitchen floor looks like it hasn't been cleaned in years. Ugh.
Gigi, I'm sorry you're down on how your pregnancy is being managed. It sounds like you have a good handle on things and that you're treading that line between crunchy ideals and safety (esp with GD) really well.
Amibeth, glad you're getting over your virus! I'm so sorry to hear about your sister's autopsy. How frustrating not to get the closure you want/need. I hope your future will hold some answers.
Anita, hope your DH is better soon!
Geez, this is long.