Join Date: Dec 2003
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I have a better idea - last one to have their baby wins!
Okay, now I have to get this off my chest. I am just getting more depressed every day. I know its only 40 weeks and 4 days, but I am really losing faith that my body is at all capable of going into labor. After last time, going 42 weeks and 3 days on perfect dates and still not having gone into labor, I just don't have a lot of faith anymore.
I know everyone says 'trust your body', blah blah blah, but I'm just starting to wonder if I'm broken. I mean its not like everyone's body works perfectly (especially with the crap we are exposed to now a days) - you wouldn't tell a woman who was having a hard time conceiving that she should just trust her body (of course with that they often can know why it isn't happening). I'm just wondering if just maybe somehow my 'go into labor' receptors are not working. It's not like this baby is not fully grown - I have zero doubt that if I go to 42 weeks like I did with DD, he will be just as big if not bigger than her (10lbs 8oz).
I don't have an induction option I'm comfortable with (as a VBAC) so my only alternative (other than trying the natural induction stuff I've already been trying) is a c-section. I talked about it with my husband and we are thinking that we'll just plan a c/s at 42 weeks if I don't go into labor by then. It doesn't seem soon enough but at the same time it seems too soon. I am so miserable, I keep thinking that if I just went for a c/s it woudl be over and I would be recovered sooner, but then I remember how much I hated my c/s last time and the recovery sucked. That just gets me more depressed because I feel certain I'm just going to end up with another one in a week and a half and if I had just not bothered with all this and planned one from the start I could be recovering holding my baby by now.
The good things is I picked a wonderful support team and so even in these times of doubt and worry knowing they are behind me and that I'd have to explain to them why I'm giving up on a VBAC keeps me from really giving in to all these thoughts.
Mightymoo - Mom to DD (6) and DS (4)