Hello everyone, this is the first time I post on this area of the forums, but Im trying to take small steps that will make me feel better and I think talking about it is an important one.
My daughter just turned 4 months yesterday and I know it's kinda late to come out and say "I think I have PPD", but I've been feeling like this for awhile and it's just been getting worse and worse and I find it so hard to talk to anyone about it. It's just so much easier to say Im ok, than get into it.
I've become very isolated. I kinda get annoyed when anybody calls me or talks to me online, because I feel like I need to pretend that I feel good, I know I dont have to, but that's just the way I am. Im extremely anxious all the time, specially at night and I've been eating sweets like crazy. It's become like a drug, I have to go get something sweet and once its at home I have to eat all of it. I've never been unable to control what I eat. I've also been having a lot of problems falling asleep.
I've become extremely concerned about my health, like Im worried that there's something wrong with me (not just mentally). My joints hurt so bad all the day and my bones crack a lot too, I had an xray for my knee which is what hurts the most, but everything came out fine.
I never want to do and barely do anything around the house. Im completely unmotivated. I think Im gonna have to cut like half of my hair because I havent comb it in weeks and its become an insane dread like knot.
I dont want to be around DP (there's a lot of problems with our relationship) and dss. I just want to be alone with my daughter all the time.