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So my BF's mom stays with us during the week to babysit Lincoln (we're both in school, and she's cheaper than daycare). She tries to be helpful, really, but she's annoying. She doesn't understand why I'm so unhappy, she just doesn't get it. And she should - my BF went through severe depression as a teenager and was actually in an institution for a period of several months (this happened twice).
The other day she was telling me about her sisters grandaughter (so her great grand niece? although it might be a boy - I really don't know). Apparently this child is special needs, is 3yo, and can't walk, can't talk, isn't potty trained, etc. I've never met this child, or even her mother. I don't know their family at all. Hearing about this child makes me sad, especially the way no one ever has anything positive to say about her (or him - again, I know next to nothing about this child.).
But the other day my MIL was telling that this child is getting a stem cell transplant as their last hope since I guess they've exhausted all other options. I don't mind her telling me about it, but the way she says it is so frustrating! It's like - you have a healthy and happy baby and so you should be happy. My BF responds by saying things like, "yeah, if Lincoln wasn't happy and healthy then we'd really have problems."
Why don't people understand that I AM thankful that Lincoln is perfect? Thankful that he's happy and healthy. I AM - really, truly, I love my son more than anything and I'm so HAPPY that he's perfect.
He IS NOT the reason that I'm depressed!! He is NOT the problem! WHY DON'T PEOPLE UNDERSTAND???? Why do they have to throw in my face that I SHOULD be happy? I KNOW THAT!!
Ok, I'm done venting. Thank you for understanding.