Hello there mamas:-D
I had pretty minor ppd (mostly anxiety) after having my first, 4 years ago. When I had my second, I felt AWESOME, 2 years ago. I had my 3rd 5 mos ago, and I just feel so......I don't know. I didn't think it was ppd because it isn't how I felt after having my first. But I feel slightly depressed, kind of like I can't get out of a funk. But the thing that makes me worry I have ppd is that I worry about really insane things. Like, the world's going to end in 2012. ( I can stay up all night worrying about this ), that someone is going to kidnap my children (again, all night worrying), that someone is going to hurt my children, that my daughter's friend's dad is going to molest her if I let her go over there without me, that my son will stop breathing in his sleep, that someone is giong to hurt my children if I let them watch them(the kids). That there is a sniper on the roof and he is trying to kill me. Ok, I knew that one was crazy...but I serisouly worried about it. Tonight my husband is working till really late, and I am just worried that someone is waiting for this opportunity to come to our house and kill us all.
I mean, I know this stuff isn't logical. But I really worry about it. I am getting all worried sitting here writing it out....especially about tonight.
What is going on here?
**editing to add....I'm so embarrassed writing this out. I just know that something isn't right and these worries shouldn't be ruling my life, but they are. I just can't stop worrying about this crazy stuff!!!