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I can't offer you much help except to tell you that when I read your post it sounded as if I had written it myself. The only difference is my mother hasn't passed away, and my baby is my second child. I'm a stay at home mom, and I feel like every day I fail my 3 year old and the baby. I am in such a downward spiral of depression. I don't know how to pull myself out of it. My husband travels 3-4 days per week for work, and I'm only happy when he is home. When he is away I feel so overwhelmed with the kids. I've been on wellbutrin for 3 weeks now, and I thought it was starting to help, but this week has been bad. I just feel so alone in the world...like you, my extended family is across the country. I, too, have taken painkillers at times that I don't need...they provide me with momentary happiness and the energy I need to take care of the house and do the things that I should be doing. I have no appetite, and I used to spend hours running/working out, and now I have no desire to do anything physical. If you figure out an answer, please share. The only thing I know to do right now is talk about it, cry, and just go through it. I hate this empty feeling.
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