I appreciate everyones responses. I was going to pull and quote but there are too many. It is comforting to know that my ds isnt the only one that makes me doubt having baby #2. My mom came and stayed with me last night, armed with a bottle. I slept hard a woke up with a new lease on life so maybe as many of you said, it is aggrivated by lack of sleep. (I would rather wake up leaking milk than leaking curse words
I will continue to reread these posts, as the first time gave me a ton of encouragement. I SO OFTEN stare at other babies, not jealous, but envious of their temperments. I cannot put ds in his carseat without him screaming. I cannot change ds diaper without him screaming. I loathe bribery in children, but feel I have already given way to it as I will shove anything in his face to distract him for whats happening! Makes me feel terrible, but to be honest, it also give me some small sense of control of the situation (which is not the case I know, but feels that way) which helps me survive it. I guess thats what I do with nursing too, though I dont consider food or comfort bribery, but if we are having a hard day Ill just keeep pulling up my shirt. If hes latched he cant be crying right? (actually hes found a way to do both!)
Again, thanks, Just knowing Im not alone is a huge relief.
DH doesnt help out a ton as some of you have guessed, he works long hrs sometimes 7 days a week and on week nights he comes home and plops in front of the computer. If I ask him to hold ds while making dinner, Ill come into the living room to find ds on the floor. Im like "if you dont hold him now hes gonna want to be held all through dinner!" This kinda sums it up. I do feel guilty for passing him off to dh when Im not "busy" I know I need to get better about this as I know he probably wont become more willing.
****Also we did have an allergy blood test done for him, we get the results wednesday. To make a long story short, at 2 mos I offered dr to cut dairy bc he was so fussy, and I dont eat gluten already. Dr says no, itll be "too hard." Flash to 6 months, same office. Different dr suggests I cut dairy because he now has "preecsema." Thanks, you sure that wont be too hard?!
So I cut dairy almost 2 mos ago and his skin has gotten worse. I called and begged for an allergy test, had to listen to ANOTHER dr blab about hydrocortisone cream....no thanks, and finally referred us for a test. I am jumping out of my seat to get the results, but dont have alot of faith it will change his whole personality. IF allergies is whats bugging him, would he still calm down if I pick him up? Would they only bug him when Im trying to sleep or wash a sink of dishes?
Sorry this is all over the place, I havent had my cup of coffee yet.