I have been on meds for depression since i was about 19 and I am now 34. I have been on many different meds.
I have two step daughters 8 & 11 and my son is 7 and baby girl is 13 months.
I don't know if I am even posting in the right place.
I feel so grouchy all the time. ESPECIALLY to my DH. I feel guilty but don't know how to stop it. It seems like there is always a reason for me to irritated. But really isn't just life? Messy kitchen, kids and hubby never pick up after themselves, drives me crazy!
I have little or no motivation to move or do anything and have to force myself to do anything. Including getting dressed to for the day.
I have no interest in sex or my dh even touching me. I feel indifferent towards him. I feel really bad about it too but don't know how to change it. I think we have had sex maybe once or twice in last year.
I am breast feeding and I think that maybe killing my sex drive. I have always had a pretty low drive anyway.
We are broke right now because I started my own business and it's slow and hubby is on disability.
We are in middle of a nasty custody battle with the girls mom.
My in laws are my land lord and are mentally ill (hoarders)
Our house is tiny 1100 sq feet and only one toleit. 3 bedrooms for 6 of us
I am overwhelmed with all the animals we have because I feel like even though the kids help I have to make sure they are all fed and watered. (4 cats, 2 dogs, 4 birds, a rabbit, a turtle)
So much needs to done around our 60 year old falling apart rental home it's a little embaressing.
Hubby starts projects and never finishes.
Sigh....I am the biggest whiner or what? We are all healthy and thanks to welfare we have food.
I can relate to the no motivation, blah,blah, blah feeling. I'm going through a bought right now and I'm just so unmotivated to do anything.
I think it might be a good idea to prioritize a bit. Your house sounds pretty hectic. Personally, I would rehome some of those animals...whew..that's a lot of work. I've had many animals during my life..at one point about the same as you and finally, I had to rehome them because it just was ridiculous that I was expending so much energy and irritation on them. Also, money wise, if your strapped and your hubby's not working it might help mellow things out a bit.
I hope things get better.
Wow, you have a *lot* going on there!! I think the hoarding alone would drive me nuts. Even if it's not my stuff, it's visual clutter, which definitely will keep you on edge.
There are a lot of changes to be made, what is your ABSOLUTE #1 priority. Something that will make the biggest difference to you *right now*.
If you can figure that out and take a few steps towards that, you will be more clearheaded and have a better idea what to tackle next.
Wish you the best, hun
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