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Well it turns out I do have ppd.
I am getting cognitive therapy and may start meds.
There is a Dr. here in Atlanta who is considered an expert on ppd.. conducting long-terms studies on it.. I am going to see his partner next week, and I may become part of the study.
I guess I am posting for two reasons.. I'd like to hear from anyone who nursed and took an SSRI (prozac, paxil, zoloft). Was it ok? Did it help?
I guess I also wanted to support others who wonder if they have ppd. Mine started at about two weeks post partum as fear and anxiety. It got worse..
now at 9 weeks I am having serious problems bonding with my babe. My marriage is struggling because I can't tune into my love for DH. I can't feel much of anything, actually.. just kind of numb, sleeping all the time, hating myself, berating myself for not losing pregnancy weight, feeling like my son and husband would be better off if I just disappeared. Wishing I WOULD just disappear. Thinking I had no business having a child and that my son hates me.
My point is.. if you are having thoughts like these, get help. Because they get worse unless you do. I thought I could just shake it off, but I absolutely couldn't. I know I can be treated. And I am getting help before I do something really self-destructive, or damage my marriage/relationship with ds beyond repair.
It is hard.
Thanks for reading this.