Join Date: Feb 2005
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I guess every woman's experience is different. Just thought I would share mine. I have no history of depression except for a few bouts when I was a teenager. During my first pregnancy, I was delighted, I probably had my down days, but I just took lots of interior time or watched TV. With pregnancy number two, it came faster than I was expecting. I was just starting to feel a little more independence from my first DS and even considering getting a full-time job (which I was excited about). Then I got pregnant, felt confused, thought I was having a miscarriage, felt guilty and realized how much I wanted the baby, then didn't have a miscarriage. In the midst of this my son was going through the terrible twos and still night nursing alot. My husband was working long hours and didn't dote on me at all the way he had with my first. Not to mention we were living in a small apartment next to a technical school where I had to listen to saws all day. I was sick, exhausted, impatient with DS, in a black hole, and just trying to make it through my days most of the time. Finally we put my son in preschool, moved, and I had a beautiful homebirth. My depression pretty much lifted right after the move as I entered my 3rd trimester. Some of it must have been hormonal, some life situation. I have felt great ever since. Now both boys are home with me full time, and I'm loving it. I still have my low energy days, but my depression during pregnancy seems like a cloud I can hardly remember. I have some regrets about how I treated my DS during that time though. I wish now that I had found a way to get some more help and support. I really didn't tell anyone except my husband and tried to tell my MW who for some reason hardly said a word. Good luck, the worst is probably behind you, but get the support you need anyway.