I'm looking for advice, and this is such a hard subject to approach with friends and even my husband........I'll try not to make this too long!
My DS is 5 months old, and I have a 4yo DD. I think I did have *real* PPD after the birth of my son. The first 5 weeks were a blur, I really don't remember much. I had a few scary thoughts of *what if* I hurt the baby..... I talked to the Dr about it, but as they (bad thoughts) had stopped, he didn't seem to think much of it except to say that the next pregnancy might be worse and I should take meds durring the third trimester.
At 3 months post partum, although I felt much better, I still felt lifeless, tired, and foggy so I saw a midwife (new insurance). She ran tests for thyroid and anemia which were negative, and gave me a prescription for Zoloft, just in case. She did not think it was clearly PPD, but said I would know if the Zoloft helped or not.
So I didn't take the Zoloft because I still am not clear if I even have ppd. I tried DHA (thanks to info on the old boards) and I think it helped, but then someone told me about mercury poisioning and I stopped.
If you are still reading, thank you, and now the question. My life is joyless. Things that should make me feel happy, generally do not. My children are BEAUTIFUL, happy, wonderful. They do not know that I would sleep 24 hours a day if I could. It takes all my energy to dress each dayl, let alone to be sure my family has something clean to wear. I'm not exagerating! I know exercise would help, but it is such an effort to get out of the house. It makes me feel like a failure, lazy, bad mother............. Is this PPD, should I try the Zoloft? Do I just need to toughen up? Does anyone know for real about fish oil/ mercury poisioning? Has anyone had success with DHA? How long did you take it for? I would like to read more about this *condition* but I don't even know if I have one!
Thanks for reading