Ok.......... Here's my story :
I have a 3 year old and a 4 month old. I had ppd with my oldest and it went away after 10 months, without meds. I took them at first but they didnt do anything so I stopped.
Baby#2 was planned. Had a semi-rough pr
. but VERY easy l&d. About a week later noticed I hadn't bonded and just wanted to be around my 3 yr old. Took Wellbutrin for 2 weeks but couldn't remember to take it, and went off. Felt better than I had before I started taking it and all fine and dandy. Now baby has SERIOUS acid reflux and is on meds for it, but they aren't working. All she does is SCREAM. And SCREAM. It's 4:38pm right now and she's only slept 86 minutes today, since 7am. I get enough sleep at night and my dh helps when he is home, but he's away from home no less than 11 hours a day, sometimes up to 13 hours.
Things are starting to unravel. I miss my 3 year old's time. I miss it being just us. I get VERY angry at poor 3 year old randomly (never physically, but I've all of a sudden turned into a yeller). There is no form of discipline with him that works (we've tried it all) so thats taking a toll also. Main problem though is that I CANNOT get any time to myself during the day. I cannot go to the bathroom without holding the baby. I cannot eat when I need to, so I end up eating a TON at the first chance (and therefore haven't lost ANY baby weight). We are not nursing and I am so resentful at having to hold a bottle for her. I just want her to go to sleep and give me a break. Just a small one. I need my identity back!!!
I was driving today and the baby just screamed bloody murder for 30 minutes...and I called my family doctor to see if they can get me on some anxiety meds and some other antidep. and they can't see me for 2 weeks!!!! I told them it was pretty much emergency and they said I'd have to wait. I don't know what I'm going to do!!! I'm at my end!!! Is there anything I can do NOW????????? I was holding her today and just...growled. I won't EVER hurt my kids but I can't go on like this.