I think I'll jump in since this issue seems to be the feature presentation of my life right now. I thought I was doing pretty good for a while after dd2 was born (5/08), but similar to my last ppd experience...it started to creep in at around 5-6mo. pp and it's been a very slippery slope. The past few weeks have gotten very tricky and I decided to go on the meds...Zoloft 50mg...I just want to be a good mother, I mean I know that I am...but it doesn't feel that way when I'm depressed and anxious.
ughh! I started them yesterday and was up half the night
thankfully dh is a total night owl, so we hung out and talked, and laughed about really stupid stuff..kinda fun, except for the headache and weird spacey feeling.
I hope I start feeling better soon, ...how did it happen? I was keeping an eye out for it, taking my vitamins, planting my garden, and boom!
Last time I had ppd, I refused to take meds for almost 3 years....I was soooo hard on myself. Taking the meds makes me feel guilty, like I'm weak or taking the easy way out. This is probably why I'm posting in the mental health forum, huh? But I am determined to find a way out of this before I miss out on these precious early years with my kiddos.
Goddess help me
emese~ I am comforted by your posts....it's like a page from my own journal. Thanks for sharing!
river~ dh is hopefully switching jobs (remember me form chef forum?) it would be a 40 hour a week job!!!!!! at the foundry. hoping and praying for that!!!