I want to reiterate on getting help. I had ppd with Ds1, but didn't fully realize it. I thought it was my circumstances that made me feel crappy...I didn't know just how complex it all was. I never received professional help...the only support I had was online. I was isolated. I didn't feel like anyone cared to listen or respond to my pleas for help, especially since some DID turn away from me. Well I went through phases. Circumstances would get a little better, I'd find a bit of motivation and inspiration to pick myself up off the floor/bed/couch, and come out of the fog a little bit. But looking back, I never really came out of the fog. It seemed to be an on and off chronic thing beginning. Later I learned about the risks of untreated ppd developing into chronic depression. I became pregnant with Ds2 when Ds1 was 13mo. There began the prenatal depression. I was scared, I knew what was coming. More ppd. Or maybe I was scared that it MIGHT come. I even went through a lot of thought and action in trying to set up support for myself.
Well, somehow it didn't really follow through. I was already feeling depressed/resentful during the pregnancy, overwhelmed by guilt and feeling trapped, like my life was over.
Sometimes I wonder, if I would have gotten REAL help the first time around, maybe I could have avoided a LOT of pain and suffering the 2nd time around. But alas, I do believe there is a reason for everything, and that there is a purpose for me experiencing what I did (maybe so I could be sharing now, who knows?).
So yeah, from my own experience, I would say if anyone were experiencing depression or other mood disorders during pregnancy or postpartum, get help immediately. I remember during the ppd after Ds1 was born saying "Well, at least it couldn't get any worse than this." Well, it did. And then the 2nd time around, it was even worse than the worst of the 1st time. Not saying that that would be anyone else's experience, just sharing mine.
More love to all the mamas here and everywhere.