I check in to the site regularly but haven't been doing much writing here, as I'm working on my dissertation and trying to get that moving. I don't think I'll have the birth story finished by the end of the workshop, but I don't think I'm really ready to finish it right now for a few reasons. I've been using the portfolio space to do some writing on why I feel stuck about this story. It has to do with my ambivalence towards my birth experience. My sister is due to have her first baby this week, and it's bringing back all sorts of anxiety for me. I want to continue to write about those feelings but not really finish the birth story just yet. I think finishing the story now, even if I tell myself that it's a version for now, feels like it will fix it and close it somehow. Does that make sense? I want the story to have more of an open, organic feel, one that shows that the story changes as my feelings towards the birth change, and I haven't figured out how to do that formally yet.
I also want to say that I am using this workshop to produce writing, which it has definitely helped me to do, and I don't really judge its success by coming up with the finished polished product right now. Rather, it's helping me get a lot down that I never would have without the workshop.