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Jesse Michener 07-11-2005 02:47 AM

An early assignment, look at this!

I thought I'd better post this a couple of days early, since my schedule has been so overwhelming these days. Reading though your work this week, I was inspired to offer this topic, "After the Baby" with a focus on the post-partum adjustment period.

Please take a moment to reflect on a single event of your post partum period, or period after your baby/child joined you. Keep it short, 700 words or less, and focus on the single event, though it may evoke a wider scope of meaning than the single event. Use your sense memory, especially heightened if you had your child by birth, to rekindle details you might have forgotten.

I was shopping tonight as I thought about what I would contribute and when this memory hit me, I noticed that I was crying in the juice aisle. The childbearing year is so rich with emotion and fodder for great writing, but it sure can be overwhelming.

Take care, beautiful ones. I hope to have more time to "chat" with you soon. Keep up building your community of writing mamas here. You're doing good, thoughtful work all the time.

With love,

Jesse



***

After the baby came, I walk through the room noticing the details. Peri bottles and chux pads, empty film containers and laundry here and there accent the happy space. It is mostly clean, just a little cluttered.

I hear my oldest daughter call me from downstairs. "One minute, I'm coming," I respond. Then I see it. My midwife has left her scarf in my room. I know before my hands touch the soft velvet that it will smell of jasmine. With a sudden rush of tears, I bring the scarf to my nose and drink in her earthy, sweet smell. In that instant, I can see and feel her next to me. Gentle hands, encouraging voice. She's my moment-to-moment sister, she's my rock. With her I have opened like with no other woman, with her I have been raw and exposed. In her I know for an instant what mother is and how daughter feels. Because of her, I am reminded of what I do not have and what I wish I did.

I wrap the scarf around my neck. Tonight I'll pretend I am the daughter who has just given birth to her mother's third grandchild. Tonight I'll pretend my mother is coming and she is everything I need.

And I will cry silent tears as I go to bed, once again left with unsatisfied expectation.

***

BelovedK 07-11-2005 10:45 AM

Jesse, what can i say? That was beautiful, it brought tears to my eyes.


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