Hi everyone. My title is meant to sound like an intro at a substance abuse meeting, as in "I have a problem"
I'm 30 years old. I started writing when I was 6, as a way to make my horrible nightmares into funny stories. I quickly became addicted to writing as it garnered such an amazing response from everyone. They loved my stories. I won creative writing awards in elementary and high school. By the time I hit high school I was bumped in honors english classes. I continued to write and write, at an alarming rate. Due to the frequency of my nightmares I never ran out of material. My english teachers wanted to publish my works, but I refused because I was a.) too embarassed and b.) too much of a perfectionist. My stories never were good enough for me, there was always something missing, but only in my eyes.
When I went to university, tho I majored in psychology, I took alot of creative writing classes. I excel in writing, I always have.
I have barely written anything in nearly 4 years. I can come up with ideas, but when I sit down to write them... I can't. I've attached alot of pain to writing somewhere along the line. I can't figure out how to get past this, but its my thing. Its who I am, its what I was meant to do, kwim?
Can anyone relate? Any words of advice? I keep trying, but I'm either discouraged because I think I suck, or I'm just stuck, totally blocked. My frustration is NOT helping anything either.