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hello to everybody- I read almost everyday, but by the time I am finished and start to write replies, I need to run. Sorry for that. Almost Fey- we seem to be in the same boat. Eisa is sleeping right now by herself in our bed. It is the morning miracle. She will not sleep for more than maybe 15 min. by herself and the evening "fussy" times seem to be getting worse. It is true that sometimes she doesn't cry too much, but then the next evening, when she does- it is just truly awful. what I wonder is does she have evening colic? Is it just normal baby tired time? Is she considered "high needs?" Sometimes she does seem to be pained, but I just can't tell for sure, b/c then she will forget for a few min or half an hour or so. We do the bouncy ball, the sling for long walks, the car, holding her like a flag person in the marching band while singing a french lullabye (she really seems to like only this song- I don't even know what I am saying,) a bath, the I Love You massage, massage before the crying time, pumping her little legs, burping a lot, and now I have quit milk for a few days. When rereading all of that, it seems like I probably just wear her out, but I don't do each of them all of the time- just things that we have tried. So, another idea is that she is gulping air when she eats and cries and now she seems to be gulping air even when she is eating happily. Oh, I just don't know. I am exhausted- I feel like if she is "high needs" it would be nice to name it that for my peace of motherhood (I can make it, I can make it) mind, but I am also wary of handing out lables of any sort to my children. My brother was a holy nightmare from infancy on- this is the story of his life as told by my mother. Nobody has ever had a baby as bad bad bad and hard as he was. She reapets this any chance that she can- and I will tell you the result- he is not so plesent to be around now. I dont' think that I would really let her kind of sadness take me over and neither would I make one hundred other parenting choices that my parents did, but it is just an ugly idea in my head- a bad start for her sweet life. And my mom has been talking about eisa in these terms since before her birth b/c she was so active in the womb and so forth. So, I also dont' want to "have it her way." So here I am, probably just having a bad day- the kind that you always hear about as a new mother, but can't believe until it gets you. When she wakes up and smiles (which I should mention that she also does quite a bit of when the conditions are laid just right) I know that the bags under my eyes will be held up by the new muscles in my bouncing arms and I will surely forget it all. thanks for letting me go on so long.
now- Sharron Anne- this is terrible with your period! Not fair at all. We still haven't figured out what to do about birth control, but are really looking forward to next week (#6) I always feel like if some people get, lets say a hard labor, then maybe something else will go more in their favor- the same for something like this- maybe you will be the only one of us who won't be pregnant in the next year! Just joking everyone! (no, sharron anne, i am not joking) Yes, everyone, I am, I am...
Melissa- Your first ice cream?! You certinly do deserve it! It is summer time afterall.
Bamamom- I wanted to tell you that I made up a pop lullabye that remindes me of you when I sing it- it goes "tra-lalala-la-laal bamarama tra-lalala-la gypsy split tra-lalala-la...."
And some more nonsense from there.
Emmy-I tried to read about sammy, but it wouldn't let me in. I hope that all is ok.
I am sure that I am forgeting other things that I wanted to say, but I think that this is long enough as is.
I can't beleive that she is still sleeping!
two girls and another on the way in feburary!