Alrighty now, I said I was not going to come on any of my boards and vent but I guess I lied.
Now I am 34 weeks pregnant and my FIL (MIL is deceased) is visiting from AZ, now here in Maine the weather generally is nice and mild, well this week is 80's with humidity
: . So you know how I am feeling waddling around at 34 weeks, like poo poo at times.
Anyway FIL over the years has been a big help to us financially in fact if he had not helped us we could not have bought our house and a few weeks ago we had an emergency $$ situation and he helped us out. (dh is a freelancer we were waiting on a ton of checks and had a car situation) Well since he has been here last Saturday I have not done much around the house because its HOT! DH as he has throughout the pregnancy is picking up my slack, cleaning, cooking, plus earning all the money. Now I should mention that when I am not pregnant I more than pull my weight plus I earn a good chunk of change so what is going on now is not the norm, of course this our 1st child together and my 2nd and its been 13 years since I had my son.
Well over the past few days I have sensed that FIL is thinking I am a tad bit lazy, since I have not cooked while he has been here in fact we have been eating out because its too hot to even have dh cook and we have no AC's. (just put one up in my room). Well dh & I go out today and sure enough dh tells me his dad did mention that I seem a bit lazy and asked if dh must always do house husband duties in addition to earning the bulk of the money.
I must admit my pregnant feelings are hurt BIGTIME. First off I have been wrapping up grad school, busting my chops to get everything done before the babe gets here, plus I do write a few columns for local publications (I earn some $$ just not a lot) and I still oversee dh's business finances and our personal finances. I have also been the one preparing everything for the baby, so even though I am not working I am working. DH & I have been together almost 10 years married 8 this fall and this is the first time that I have ever not worked and believe me its been an internal struggle to allow myself to trust someone at this level.
Part of me is like I should just let it roll after all this is the first time we have seen FIL in 5 years so its not like visits are common. Yet its also just bugging me, I guess it didn't help that FIL thinks I am wasteful because every day I have a decaf Dunkin Donuts craving so I buy coffee out daily despite having a coffee maker here at home.
Hey, I realize I am probably being petty but its hot and I am very pregnant and I just don't want to be judged.
Well I am home alone so I figured I could safely vent without anyone reading over my shoulder.
Hope everyone has a good weekend.