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Dh went back to work today...so a 4 day old and almost 4 year old....not a great day! Ds isn't listening, right now banging something on his door..still. OH how &&&&ING obnoxious can he be today!?
Ok, vent over. He's been ok, until after "nap time" where while feeding Kate he decided to come out and refuse flatly to go back in there. I just don't have the energy to keep laying him in bed, and all that &h*t today. I hate that dh had to go back to work, but he was out all last week with his back being hurt.
Anyway...baby's doing great. She is a little mixed up with sleep times, and sleeps less at night than I would like. Last night she was up from about midnight to 3 am, then slept until about 5:10 and went back to sleep at about 6-7:45. She slept until 8:10, but ds wouldnt leave me alone or kept touching her. (I was sleeping in the living room) and I was starting to get annoyed with him and paranoid that he'd wake her up before she was ready to eat.
She brought my milk in at about 60 hrs...probably sooner than that, but that's when I noticed it. When the midwife came back at 3 days, she had lost 2 oz, and didn't look jaundiced at all. So that's great! I am enjoying her awake periods very much, all the looking around and cute little faces she makes! I think ds started doing it at about a week old, all the crap I had pumped into me in labor made him such a sleepy baby for a while.
If I could just get 5 hrs of sleep between 11pm and 7am I'll be a happy camper. I would love it to be 5 hrs straight, but I can do a 1 hr gap in there and still be ok. I think last night I got 4 total.
I'm also feeling 'mommy guilt' about Jack. He's so BIG, but still needs me so much. I just wish he'd listen better, then I wouldn't be yelling at him so much. I absolutly HATE that I'm yelling at him at least once an hour....usually more like 4 times an hour. For simple things like when I ask him to NOT TOUCH the swing or the bouncy seat..and he does it anyway. I sit there saying "Jack" about 10 times ina row, or "don't touch" a few times in a row then I raise my voice and sometimes even that doesn't get his attention. I know he's adjusting too, but he's been acting like this all summer...only now he's beginning to figure out that I can't just jump up.Although I did once while Kate was nursing and he got the point that time. PBS and Disney movies only last so long...I'd like for him to expend some energy by playing in his room with his toys...he just doesn't always want too.
Well, I think Kate is making me a diaper, but either way, she'll be wanting to nurse soon...maybe, it's been an hour and she didn't nurse long last time.
Oh ya, how do I feel PP...not bad, just TIRED, I knew I was going to be tired, but geeze. Oh and hungry, but I didn't have a lot of 'quick grab' stuff here, and it's difficult as you all know to get up and make something between diapers and nursing sessions. And if my nipples keep hurting like this I'm gonna just cry and flood my house.
~Autumn~ Mama to (2001) and (2005) madly in love since '99