Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: Ozark Mountains, Missouri
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i'm really going out on a limb here; i don't know if i'm just "down" or what; i mean i have these days/weeks anyway when i just feel like nothing is right with me or anything else, but the last few days, everything just feels so HUGE, you know? Pregnancy hormones or something maybe, but i feel really REALLY crappy and i hope i don't sound too much like i'm whining but i'm wondering if i need some kind of help? i think my husband is worried about me. i just sooo don't want to be "that person" especially right now.
My hubby made a comment today (he knows not to approach these things head-on, lol, bless that man) that maybe if i let him know ALL the things that were bothering me, we could talk about them, and maybe that would help. Well i thought about it today, and there are something like 30 items on that hypothetical list (eep!) that are causing me severe anxiety.
i've been so bad to the kids; i'm always either yelling at them because they're "bugging" me (heaven forbid they tap me on the shoulder out of boredom; maybe if i had something for them to DO they wouldn't be nagging at me) or just not caring at all what they're doing; there was a couple of times today they were fighting over something, and i didn't even care if it was getting worked out or not. And stuff like snacks...i just don't give a crap if they each have 6 servings a day of goldfish or not.
i got mad at my husband today for something innocent he said; i think it was a passing comment about how hot i used to be; not that i'm not attractive to him now or anything, but it reminded me of all the things i dislike about myself, so i took that to mean he agreed with all the things i was thinking...makes alot of sense, right? hmm...
So yeah, i think i've really lost it all the way around this time.