Oh Gosh! You really are freaking out!
to hear that you are hoping for an unmedicated hospital birth
!! I wouldn't rule anything out though since you have thought of it forever and just recently decided not to have meds. ALTHOUGH I would put your birth wishes in writing (birth plan) and tell DH that if you really think that you can't do it then have a sign between the two of you. Your DH should try to keep encouraging you through contractions...they get hard but... YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!
I would concentrate on being in control though, it's your baby and your labor and your delivery and you can and should have it the way you want. I HIGHLY recommend going in to your next appt with a birth plan
(there are several sites-just google birth plan and they come up) that is one way to stay in control and get what you want. One thing you need to remember though is that you need to be positive
in the plan (you don't want to have negative communications at this time in life
) AND go over it with your doctor. If she uses stirrups (not all docs do) and you don't want them put that in your BP, but also you need to be able to compromise with things too. If you do that and go over it with the doctor have the doctor sign it
and then no one should (I guess they still can) give you any trouble about it.
Another thing I was thinking was that you don't have to listen to the doctor unless the baby is in some sort of trouble. What I'm talking about is when she said that you should be having this baby soon...realistically it could go for another 6 weeks, but that is up to baby to decide. Not the doctors...it sounds like she has induction on her mind when she says that.
It's not too late to get some good birth books. Find out all you can about the stages of labor and the signs to look for. Usually when you are getting to the point of "I can't do this anymore" you are almost there~seriously.
Try looking at Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way
by McCutcheon (excellent and EASY to read), The Birth Book
by Dr Sears, The Pregnant Woman's Guide to a Better Birth
by Henci Goer. There are others that I'm sure someone else can recommend... Ina May's book (I don't know the name)
This site and due date club has a lot of experienced women that can help you. Post away and ask all the questions you want. We are here to help each other out!