Join Date: Aug 2004
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I am so frustrated. I am 41 weeks and 3 days today. If anyone told me at any point in my pregnancy that I would still be "expecting" in November, I would have laughed them to the crazy house. Physically both baby and I are doing great. Mentally I am a basket case. I will be induced on Monday with Cervidil if nothing happens before that. I am trying to buy until Tuesday with my midwife right now, but she won't return my damn call. Don't they give special treatment to women who are almost 42 weeks pregnant????
I have tried almost everything at this point: sex, oral prostolglanding, eggplant, black & blue cohosh, nipple stimulation, walking, acupuncture...
It's very frustrating that my body is not responding to ANYTHING!! It's even more frustrating because people say things like, "Oh, I had acupuncture and went into labor that night." Or sex or whatever. Nothing is working. Now I am so depressed I am sure that is halting me even more. I cried myself to sleep last night after 3 hours of bawling and I have already cried for an hour today. I thought maybe if I made the baby feel sorry for me he would come out.
I'm so scared that they will induce me with the Cervidil and that won't work and then I'll get the pit drip, which will put me through the roof and then I'll want an epidural, which will slow things down and then I'll end up with a c-section. I'm not usually such a pessimist, but I think I am really depressed. Dh is trying to be supportive, but him telling me "there's nothing we can do" isn't really helping. And regardless of how sweet he is, he has NO idea how I am feeling right now. Hardly any of my friends have ever made it past 40 weeks so they have no idea either. They are also telling me just to give up on the idea of my peaceful, natural water birth at the birth center and focus on having a healthy baby doing anything it takes.
Susan~Mama to Atticus (2003), Creeley (2005), Townsyn (2007) and a fourth boy on the way in 2011!