first off NN
I may be way off base here, but this is the impression I get reading your post.
1. YOu have ALOT on yoru plate right now, and you dont; have anytime for yoruself, and are greatly feeling the demands of being all things to all people.
2. YOu haev a very deep desire and comittment to CLW
again I may be way off base here, but I dont' think you really want to wean your dd, you want to know if you had too, if you wanted to, you would have that option! That you do have a choice! AS you said, that you haev a say.
My dd is goign to be 6 yrs in 2 mths, she shows NO signs of weaning....I am fine with that....my son is goign to be 2 yrs in 16 days (not that I am counting
) and shows no sign of weaning....does this feel like a burden some days? YES! it does, some days I wish I coudl sit down without someoen nursing:LOL I wish DD would not nurse some days, but in my heart I knwo that I feel very strongly about CLW and I am givign her a great gift and it is her right to wean when she is ready....and it is my right to decide IF i can do that for her.
I have decided I can, it is not always easy, but it is worth it as I am sure you see in all your children. you can see the benefits of the choices you haev made where they are concerned.
you are tired, and overwhelmed....take a deep breath and know it is okay, to feel overwhelmed. you are doing yoru best.
WE are all here for you if you need to vent, if you need a shoulder.
I can say I love tandem nursing, but that doesn;t mean that I look forward to every single nursing session. and remember that each child is differnt,
you said you didn;t enjoy yoru last tandem relationship, this will be a new tandem relationship (if you decide to tandem that is) with 2 different people.
do what you feel you must do for the good fo both yourself and your child,
I hope this helps and I am not just rambling....