I feel fine and normal. I think I really got wigged out for no reason. I did a lot of journaling last night, first real hard copy for this pregnancy, and I think it recentered me very well. Getting all the stuff out that we have been through this past 20 mos was very good "therapy".
I didn't feel like I had gotten all hyperchondriac, but after looking at our very eventful past 20 mos, it would be surprising if I didn't.
I also had a discussion with my friend that has had several twin PG losses, other M/Cs, and a baby die at birth after losing the 2 others early on in the PG (so triplet loss). She has gone through a lot more than I have, that is for sure, but still has 12 beautiful children to show for it. I asked her if she got paranoid after the losses, and she said most definitely. It kind of goes with the territory. But, after evaluating things, seeing the dr and making sure all was okay, she could rest and relax. She had to use anti-anxiety meds at times, but I think I should be able to avoid that.
I do have a mild anxiety disorder, on top of all the past stress, which comes and goes. My DH has a better faith in God and in life in general (for the most part), and sometimes it is just about reconnecting with him. He works A LOT and if we start letting life take over, and not spending enough time together, I think I get off center and start having lots of fears and doubts. We are suppose to have a family day on Thurs, so I think that after, we will HAVE to make some time before he goes to bed to really talk. He will be able to settle me even more, and I don't mean in a s*xual way.
Of course, I am sure he wouldn't mind that either.
TY to all the ladies, I have learned so much, and you are so kind to spend the time talking to me about this. Kymberli