:LOL Thanks for helping me put things in perspective : )
I talked to my mum last night and she said she didn't like the lady very much! She was like "Oh her!" when I asked about it, and apparantly she is positive the woman said at least 4 children for me. I got the figure 2 because she said one of my brothers would have 2 children.
Btw I also gave birth in Australia with DD and Mum was there. I didn't leave Australia til DD was 8 months and I will be back before this baby is due in August... FOR GOOD! My mum is more connected to her granddaughter than DH's mother is and DH's mother has had more opportunity/time to see DD (but hasnt really). My DD loves my mother very much and they definitely have something there.
There is no way DH can drag me away again, it was a mistake for both of us to leave
Mum was puzzled. She said it was not like me to worry about a silly thing like this and she is right.
I have no idea why this idea popped into my head and I think it may be due to doubts that I will be able to have an UC as simply and easily as I think I will.
I think that other people are factoring into this doubt as well because even if something happens that my instinct guides me to seek outside help - I would not see it as a failure but others would and therefore they would make it harder when I had the next UC/next child. The whole point of my desire to UC is to be FREE to follow my instincts and feelings of what is right.
I am confident for me, not so confident for other people. I think I am worried about other people just as I was for my first planned hb (with a m/w). Either I should tell no one I am in labour, or I should have more talks with the people that MIGHT be around when I am in labour (DH, Mum etc) and if they are not free of fear before the time comes, it will have to be just me for my own good ya know?