But I'm just not sure. I only just found out that I'm pregnant (woohoo!) and when I think about the birth and how I want it to be I get all stressed and don't wanna talk about it.
dd1: 10 hours of labor, water broke when I pushed, 4 of those hours were pushing, asynclitic head and hand to face. Homebirth with CNM. I loved the experience.
dd2: water broke before the onset of labor. about 15 minutes later contrax began. dd born in water approx. 90 minutes later. planned homebirth, unexpected UC (I had the same mw as before). Again, I loved the experience.
So now I'm pg with our 3rd and final dc. I truly adore my mw although she's a little more conservative than I am, at this stage of my life. That has thrown up a few red flags, although I think when it came down to it she'd follow my wishes. I've already talked to her (before I was even pg) to see how she'd feel about being in another room throughout the whole experience and only coming in if I should request her. She says she's fine w/that and has done it before. I believe her. I guess the thing that's nagging at me is that I'm not 100% comfortable with a UC (more like 99.9%). I LOVED my UC experience, although there was a part of it just after the birth where we weren't sure if dd was okay or not, but I guess I feel that a situation may arise that we simply aren't equipped to deal with - emotionally (being that it would be OUR child) more than anything else, although of course, I don't carry oxygen equipment, etc. So I guess I'm more comfortable having someone who is emotionally detached, more or less, who carries equipment I just don't have waiting in another room. I do have faith in birth and my body and believe that my chances are excellent for having a quick and uneventful experience but I still have that whole "just in case" thing going on.
Anyway, I don't know if I "qualify" to be here based on what I just described but I'm going to hang out anyway and learn as much as I can. Regardless of what I end up deciding I *want*, I have to prepare myself for another UC. I think there's a good possibility that will happen regardless.
Anyway, words of wisdom would be appreciated. TIA!
Mama to four remarkable kiddos, all born at home.