We are finally home. We signed Blitz out AMA on Sunday. His respiratory problem (TTN
) had cleared up, but he was having trouble gaining weight. Well, the reason why he was having trouble gaining weight is that A-the stress of the whole NICU experience was majorly affecting my milk supply, B-Blitz was stressed and worn out from the whole experience, C-we were not able to nurse on demand due to their strict schedule, and D-they wanted to "top him off" with formula even when he did successfully nurse. So they tried to bully me (because I was exhausted and very emotional) until my dh could get back up to the hospital, and then they realized that they could not do anything else to keep us there, so they sent down the neonatologist to discharge us. She asked us to "promise" that we would bring him back in on Monday (yesterday) for a weight check and a bilirubin check. We said that we would, and then she added, "because I would hate to have to sic social services on you. Trust me--you don't want CPS to get involved." As I told all of these people before we left, I feel like I was treated with more respect as a 21-yr-old first time mother who was breastfeeding a baby for the first time than they had treated me--and he's my fifth baby to breastfeed! Well, we took him back up yesterday, and he had gained weight (gasp!), the nurse even commented on how much better and more alert he looked, and then they had another UA violation nurse call to threaten me one more time about getting him into a pedi for a follow-up, or we would need to bring him back again on Wednesday--and there was an "or else" that was very clear, albeit unspoken, there. Who gave birth to this baby anyway?
Regardless, we are so happy to be at home and to be snuggling and nursing on demand. I feel like we are starting all over as far as nursing goes, and that is just fine for me. He is doing great, and although he looks worse for the wear after being in there, at least he is breathing well and settling well back into life as #5.
Thank you again for all of your well wishes. I'm off to do more babymooning now!
And I will add pics as soon as possible!