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Originally Posted by tanyalynn
Anyone read Simple Abundance? A friend loaned me a copy, it's a great fit for where I am now and where I want to be. About creating a simple, peaceful, harmonious, joyous home life. We surely haven't had that for quite a while, and this is the extra help I need to inspire me to make the changes we need.
Not sure how it's allergy related, except that the extra overhead of thinking about health stuff and food stuff makes everything go slower.
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I don't think I've read it, but do focus on keeping things simple around here. We've been trying to organize and clear stuff out, but I swear, time moves differently in this house. Today I dropped off books and clothes at goodwill
baby steps, but still progress. I'm trying to get myself a good yard, where we can keep chickens, and maybe goats. That means moving. Which means selling this place. Which means making it presentable. Which means getting rid of more stuff.
It's really interesting to watch myself change. I've changed a lot in the past 4 years. There's the becoming a mother stuff that everyone does, and the dealing with food sensitivities, and the mommy warrior stuff. Then there's the letting go, the shifting of priorities, realizing how the world works. I feel like I'm seeing it from the outside after being caught up in the middle my whole life. And everyone else is still caught up in the middle. And doesn't care about the outside. So I'm still an outsider, but a more zen outsider
it's the shifting of priorities that's getting me now. The balance before was precarious. Fun, exciting, high, wild. Balanced, but not stable. Now I'm being drawn towards stability and grounding myself. It's a weird feeling.
We signed dd up for preschool, and I think I'm cool with it. I want to be excited about it. It really is an awesome preschool - Unconditional Parenting and Siblings Without Rivalry are on the reading list, and there are even several homeschool families who attend and love it. The way I learn is by exploring a path and immersing myself in it, then deciding if I like it or not. There's so much talk about homeschooling and unschooling around here (mdc) that that's the path I've been going down. But I think I've hit the end where I can make peace that it might not be the best choice for us. I still haven't decided against it, but the other options (local public school) are looking more reasonable than they were. I thrive with structure, really thrive. I loved school. And I'll leave it at that. This school has a really strong community to go with it, so hopefully that will do me well. I really want to start living IRL more. I feel like I've built a fortress around myself with the allergy stuff, and now I'm trying to figure out how to get out. It's tough. I'm good at building fortresses.
Sorry for the somewhat OT ramble. I'm still trying to process this all for myself. I think a lot is triggered by dd suddenly acting like a normal kid, and the hopeful promise of getting a bunch of foods back with the pancreatic support. If she's acting normal AND eating normal, and me too... Then we're not special anymore? Then we fit in? Then its time for me to get to know the new me? Yeah, a lot of processing for me to do, still.