thanks for the replies, mamas. And thanks casina for the post. It was helpful on a variety of levels. I always said I would not put dd in the hands of strangers, and i, for the most part, never thought i would leave her w/dh either. we have been beyond poor for a long time, borrowing money every month. but we can't borrow money any more, and if i don't bring in some extra money we won't be able to pay rent.
i have tried to do some contract work- editing/proofreading/research- but it is hard to break through in this field, and so i have had few clients. i also had hoped i could submit my writings for publications for some extra money, but that is equally competitive. lastly, i sell on ebay like crazy, but that is often hit or miss.
we are already not paying our house bills- housemates are covering for us for the time being. crazy thing is we don't qualify for food stamps, but we do get wic so that helps. and we don't have credit cards any more due to the fact that i declared bancruptcy a few months ago. a messy, sticky, complicated financial web of the last 5 years.
anyway, i've committed to working through the summer. hopefully dh's biz will pick up by then.
in the mean time i'm trying to communicate the ways i'd like him to respond to dd, so that the parenting is as consistent as possible. he tends to get defensive when i correct him.
: i gave him a jan hunt book awhile back to read- i don't think he's opened it. more
: he doesn't seem to understand that i've come this far in my parenting through exploring what is out there, and matching it w/ my intuition as far as what feels right. it's taken a lot of hard work and consciousness to go beyond raising dd like i was raised, or how the "traditional" child is raised.
ok, i am babbling now.
anyway, it will certainly be an interesting process. i'm going to try to work in 4 hour shifts so that dd is not away from me for big chunks of time. hopefully that will be the right approach.
shifting gears, dd has been a stair climbing, chair climbing fiend! she loves climbing into the rocker, and being in chairs in general right now. she sits up there with this big grin on her face, loving her new perspective. she is doing great climbing up and down the stairs, and is doing pretty good with the "on your tummy toes first" approach to going down the stairs as well as getting down from the rocker. yesterday she climbed up a step stool.
she gets a bit wigged when she can't get down, but is learning quickly how to maneuver herself onto her front so she can get her toes behind her. she has great hand eye coordination.
still not much discernable words, but lots of Kathrynn talk. she is very invested in what she is saying, whatever it is.
she likes to use "words" that have the letter b in them.
well, that is long enough for a sunday morning. :LOL