Well, we had our first really bad night of "single parenting" last night! Andrew woke at 1, after not going to sleep until well after 10, which is very, very late for him. I nursed him, and he insisted on talking and asking where his dad was and saying he needed this car or that car or a drink or something to eat, very whiny the whole time. I nearly lost it, I had to work today, and after two hours, at almost three am, I was pretty much in tears, and he kept saying "big hug mummy, big hug" and hugging me, but then he'd whine for something again. I gave up and called my mum, who is an angel, and she came over, and then Andrew said "Granny, yay, go to granny's house see Michael, bye mummy, see ya". Michael is the dog. I just about lost it, he obviously knew he was skating on thin ice with me and wanted out of there! So she took him, and I guess he was up til 5 am! Anyway, I went in to work, did the puppet show (on a normal day, I would really love my job!), came home and went to sleep before it was even lunch time! Andrew is still at mum's, my sister is entertaining him, and he's having a blast, got on the phone and told me all the fun he's having, then said "bye mummy" and kissed the phone. Well, he's going to stay there tonight as well, and I'm going to sleep here, all by myself, in peace and quiet, and hopefully feel better tomorrow! I have always thought single parents had their work cut out for them, it must be hard to do it alone.
Has anyone read "Operating Instructions" by Anne Lamott? It's her diary entries from the first year of her son's life--she's an author, and was a recovering addict and single parent at the time she had her son. It's such a funny, sad, wonderful little book, that I don't think you would get if you didn't have a child. I recommend it to anyone. That and the CD by Nancy White called "Momnipotent", which has a little song on it called "The Secret", that you should all rush out and listen to as well. Another one of those things that you just wouldn't get until you had a child of your own.
Alison, who is so tired and starting to ramble.