we're having a much better day today. last night i told dh that i needed to put lily to bed...i just felt like i really needed to connect with her one-on-one and remember why i love her so much (after having such yucky thoughts about wanting to ship her off to live somewhere else all day
so we took a bath together and i gave her unlimited nursing. quinn was screaming like a wild man and dh (who has been incredible this time around) was totally overwhelmed. he came in and we just kind of seamlessly switched kids and it was fine.
lily went to bed very easily for dh and i was sound asleep with quinn before he came out of her room.
anyway...one day at a time.
i'm really grateful to have all of you to share this adventure with.
queenie...how's your sister???