Actually my grandmother gave them to me,,I have two. She, not knowing how much smarter we are now ( ha!) just assumed that the baby needed small pillows in his crib from the start,,so she had made a bunch of receiving blankets and brought us those and pillows,,,I sweetly said thanks,,we would use them ( thinking we would keep them in the car for the big kids!) and wondering if she would croak to know we didn't even have a crib for the baby!( we just co-slept from day 1)
So I am not sure where you can find them,,but she had even sewn little pillowcases which are sure cute now!
Don't worry,,you can't measure yourself by looking at other moms. Yeap,,moms with a few kids do tend to get pretty laid back,,because we have to! But that doesn't mean that you aren't doing exactly what you need to do as a first time mom! Each parenting relationship is so different,,and you have to follow your gut to make it right for you and your little one. My sister in law is really anal...I mean like neurotically anal, about her daughter. We just had the most amazing conversation while she was on morphine :P following her c-section with her second daughter, and I just walked away amazed. She seems like this perfect mother to me,,her house is immaculate, her daughter is a genius, and she is working on her masters thesis,,is the ultimate hostess, so on. She said she feels so inadequate as a mother next to me because I am so laid back,,and she feels like the family wishes she was more like me,,,well funny that I always feel like a really slacking mother around her,,my house sure isn't perfect, and our children won't ever get to go to montesorri preschool because we just have other financial priorities,,I always feel like our family looks at me as the lousy flighty mother! ( we married brothers, so we both married into this family we share., and I was previously married so I came with two kids..) It is amazing how mothers just so make it hard on ourselves by comparing! We need to empower each other to NOT DO THAT!!! We should support each other to just parent from the gut,,and know that makes us a perfect parent to the kids God gave us!
sorry for that ramble! I get all chatty when the baby is napping!
Have a great day,,you great mama!