Well, howdy there.....
: I missed you so much......
: I finally have internet (high speed) set up at mom's....whew.
I hope to be back more often now that things have settled down. Mom is doing better and better every day. She will never be the same but I see glimpses and that's enough for me. She voted and that was huge for her bc she was so upset she wasn't going to get to vote but she was able to. She won't tell me who she voted for though.
We are staying with her right now bc Dh and I have split. I don't know if it's temporary or permanent yet....taking it day by day. Lots of things just came to a head finally and it was just time to take the step I've been thinking about for quite some time. Something I should've prolly done 18 months ago when I first thought about it......but I chose to ride the ups and downs and lately there were way more downs than ups. So, here I am.
A single mama with 2 girlies. It's hard. But at least I have mom's to go to and I am blessed there. I am doing a bunch of work to the house so it's more habitable for the girls.....trying to get rid of the smoke smell, figuring out what to do about the carpet etc......
I've taken a month break from my childcare and thankfully I have understanding families.....the house just isn't ready for childcare there. I only have part time kids now so it's not a huge deal but now that I am on my own, I will need a full timer or two...so much of my money is tied up in college savings for the girls I swore I would never touch, preschool 3 days a week for my oldest and I can't take that away from her bc she is flourishing so and totally in love with it (it's a Montessori/Waldorf mix and it's great and priced so well....)....it gives her some solace in this craziness right now.
I don't know what the holiday's will bring. Trying to save up a bit to get them a few things. We never did anything huge....just a few things......simple things.
I'm looking into becoming a doula....I have most of the work done...just need to figure some things out and get working on it. So that will be good and hoepfully generate a bit of income for me.
Dh was laid off during this so money is just as tight for him right now. Luckily when we moved in May we got in on a sweet deal for the townhouse so......that should be ok until at least then. ALOT will have to change for me to take myself and the girls back. We will see...day by day......but I don't know. ALOT about him will need to change. I was basically a single parent when we were together anyways so....I feel awful he was laid off during this and we both knew it may be happening as his company has talked about it for a long time. He tried to plan for it but got busy doing other things. He needs to look down inside himself and find out what he really wants.....He has some job prospects which is good and that makes me happy. I just had to do what was best for the girls and I. We are happy and adjusting well but like I said, I was basically a single parent to begin with. He would work, come home, go to the garage to do his hobby stuff, ate dinner with us but would stand in the kitchen (eat in kitchen), go back out to the garage before we were even done, come in and go to bed.
Lilah is a walking fool. We went from tentative steps to I've been doing it my whole life. She is working on 6 teeth right now and they've all popped through thank god...it's been rough. I adore her more and more each day.
I took her for her FIRST sick visit and only as a precautionary just in case. She had a sinus thing going on and no matter what I did, I couldn't thin out the crap in her nose so it just got stuck there and then goopy eye came. She's getting better and it's been 9 days now and she's pretty much on the med. I broke down and filled the ointment for her eye since NOTHING else was working and she's happier. She weighed in at 20 pounds 14 ounces. Such a peanut.
I need to find her some 6-9 footie jammies/play zippies....the Carters ones fit her perfect and the 9-12 gymbo/old navy ones fit her perfect. She is just enough off season from big sister that the sleepers don't fit but the tops/jeans do so......She had on the cutest outfit the other day complete with her big sister's old Stride Rite shoes and looked so old so I stripped her down to her Snappi'd prefold....hahahahha.
I'm having issues with dd1 treating her as if she's a doll and Lilah is starting to protest very loudly about it and her sister has just forgotten what no, stop, don't and please don't means these days. I've given some leeway bc of all that's been going on but I'm at my wit's end with the tenacity if that makes sense. It will serve her well when she's older though.....she got both her father's and I's stubborness.....loads of fun.....gifts
: i don't know what we will be doing this year gift wise. dd1 will get some of my old fisher price little people stuff mom kept immaculate care of and lilah will get a baby of some kind if i can get the money together and maybe some cute diapers? I have a bunch of fabric so I may make them Hanna style playdresses if I can find the time....there just isn't $ for anything else this year.lindsay:
@ Ro's animal sounds...I had a video that taught animals with abc's when dd1 was little so she was about 15 months old and knew all these offbeat animals and sounds....i loved it.Wendy:
Looks like I picked a fab time to return!! Many blessings for a smooth and easy labor for Kaija!! Big hugs to you!!!!Katie
: I scanned through the end of October's thread and I think you look great and I won't mention the T word. My friend Tanya was way bigger so early the second time around we thought it was the BIG T word but it wasn't. Just a bigger baby and she settled in and looked about right near the end!! So excited for you. Adorable pics of Mr. Liam. I have to confess that I haven't carved our punkins yet. Just got busy. Maybe tonight.Jess
: Hello. Howdy. Hi.
Hello to everyone else. I wish I had more. I'm just so
: that I have internet again and can pop back in more reguarly......and I'm excited about that.
It's a new day...a new president.....a new beginning for the girls and I. Who could ask for more.