I know there's a million and a half of these threads, but I wanted to get my own thoughts out, so I hope y'all don't mind another.
My daughter is 21.5 months old. Ideally, I wanted to nurse until at least two, but I am having hardcore aversions and just can't stand it anymore. (No, definitely not pregnant.) We were already down to nursing maybe once a day, but I don't feel like I can continue even that much.
I have tried talking to her about her latch, and now she even recites what she's supposed to do before she has "ju jus" -- "Mama? Aaaaah - big mouth! Drinks. Get milk out!" The thing is, she's really not going after milk anymore. I don't know if my supply decreased and she went with it, or if she stopped trying and my supply decreased, but I get the impression it isn't as easy anymore (though I still definitely have some milk) and she just doesn't care. She's in it for the non-nutritive sucking, which has been giving me the heebies.
I know it's at least partially hormonal, because the creepy-crawly stuff started coming on around when I'd ovulate and during my period. Now it seems like it's going on all the time. My instinct is that I'm returning to serious fertility, and that's why. I have absolutely no interest in TTC right now, and have an IUD, so that's not a factor in weaning. Unfortunately, I can't turn off those icky feelings no matter how hard I try.
Logically and emotionally, I'd love to continue nursing for a while. She still asks, so I know she'd still like to, though I feel like it's easier on her to be turned down from the get-go than what happens now: I start to let her nurse and then have to take her off, which really upsets her.
I'm just so sad and feel like I can't win. I would happily keep nursing her if I could make the aversions stop, but I don't want to unhappily nurse her if I can't. I have enjoyed nursing her and don't want it to turn into something I hate and dread. To top it all off, she has a little bit of a cold, and I am so sad I don't have the magic milk cure like I have all this time!
What do I do? Is there some way to fix the aversions that I have somehow missed? If not, and we're really done, how do I quit being so sad about it? How do I go about stopping--do I just STOP? I was recently gone for nearly a week with no nursing and no engorgement, so I'm probably at a low enough supply point that I'm not going to hurt myself by going cold turkey. I feel like it would be less traumatic for her at this point to just be DONE and move on, but I don't know.