Well, I feel like a total failure..
here I am making stuff from scratch, using up the pantry stuff, feeling good - today I totaled all my receipts and I've spent $300+ in 18 days. !!!!
I mean, for pete's sake, I was BAKING BREAD!
I knew about $160 at the start, and I spent $30 on much needed fruits and veggies today - but the other $110+ was just piddly stuff here and there that was totally unnecessary.
It's more than a little shocking - I think dh said it comes to about $19 a day on food. But we are NOT eating $19/day... more like $4 one day (homemade bread, a bean dish, oatmeal, apples) and then the next day getting something really overpriced and stupid out of some perceived need. I felt like I went without SO much this month too. I wanted newman ginger o's and other assorted things and I went without, being so proud of myself for sticking to my new plan. What a joke!
I am just really mad at myself, but at least now I have a real concrete need on why I need to fix this, and I have definite room for improvement! Let's hope next month is better.
In other news>> I got rid of about 3/4 of my canned and pantry foods. I hadn't seen some of those cans towards the back in years, and they were gnarly. I mean, really gnarly. Salsa that was closed and yet had dehydrated noticeably, cans that were rusty - stuff like that. I am sure some of it was still edible, but even with getting rid of it I still have enough canned food (beans, tomatoes, pineapple, salsas, pickles etc etc) to last a looong time. I just really felt the need to prune back and organize, and I think it was a good move because I found gems I had forgotten I had. (I bought honey 2 weeks ago and I found, ahem, FOUR JARS of it unopened. I found brown rice syrup and enough good salsas and bbq sauces for many meals.)
So, give it to me straight - am I the worst 'before' this room has seen? Anyone want to be the person I call when I am lost and preparing to go spend more money? :LOL
I have a question - would you donate food that you personally wouldn't want to eat? Not just "eww, I hate canned peas" but, "I have no idea how old these canned peas are..."? I hate to waste edible food, but lord knows *I* don't want to eat it!
And one more question - anyone make their own bbq sauce? I have spices, sweeteners and tomato products out the wazoo. Stop me from running to the store and picking up a bottle of Annie's (along with 15 other things). I need an intervention, or at the very least a good recipe.
(Please don't kick me out, I will get better! I promise!)